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Sick and Tired

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

So, here's the deal : I always feel like I'm being compared to other girls and it completely destroys my self esteem. My boyfriend says that he loves me, and he loves me the way I am, but I can't help but notice how he looks when a really pretty girl comes around. He tells me that I'm pretty and he likes the way I look, but sometimes I have a hard time believing him. emoticon

Either way, he seems happy with me and I've just got to get past my own demons to accept that. I have very little self esteem to begin with, so this is just another blow to it and I'm getting so sick of all of it! I want to change myself to make myself feel better...emotionally, physically, mentally...just overall.

Willpower is something I'm lacking, so I would absolutely LOVE to have a workout/diet buddy. Just someone to keep me motivated and remind me not to give up. I really want this, more than ever now...sparkpeople is going to be my big step forward, and this time I'm not turning back. emoticon
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  • FRAISE12
    Thanks, Flare. I really appreciate your comment. :)

    I don't love me, and I know that's a big part of my problem...so I'm hoping I can change all of that while I'm here!
    4144 days ago
  • FLARE68
    Oh, girl. I wouldn't be worried about whether he loves you or not but whether You love YOU or not. Our insecurities eat away at us until nothing is ever enough, ever right etc.
    You are perfect as you are right now. If you want to get in better shape or eat healthier then you have picked the right place to do it. Just remember, this life is NOT a dress rehearsal so live it to it's fullest!!
    Good luck! emoticon
    4145 days ago
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