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Friday, February 19, 2010

This Am was a sleep in day for me. I haven’t had a good nights rest since the week before going to CA for the Surf City Marathon. Yet that was my choice. On my Mornings off I had been getting up early to go for walks. We’ll what made this morning different? I gave myself permission to sleep in. I could get my walk in before noon so that was ok. As I lied there in bed telling myself I should get up and get this over with my body was telling me something different. It was reminding me of my aches and pains. I hate Mornings like this. Then my Cat (Chardonnay) decided that she would lie on my chest and sooth me with her purring, then up comes Fawn my little Baby, she is a Schnauzer/ Lhasa Apso mix. She puts her head onto my neck and snuggles, so anyway we lie there snuggling, yes all 3 of us and I was enjoying the moment.

After snuggling with my furry children I got up. Hurting bad.. I kept telling myself “sorry your not getting out of going for the walk today”. I went to the kitchen got a cup of coffee and decided I better fire up the wii and do my weigh in and some fitness items to get the body moving. So I did and I was still aching. I went to the kitchen still not listening to my body and fixed my Protein Smoothie with fruit. Then sat at the PC to check E-mails and check on some friends.. Well as I was there I say another Caring bridge for Lili, my Heart Jumps every time I see those. Well her Mommy posted ~ The disease in Lilli's lungs is worse. I am not sure if she has more infiltration or if it is simply all of the blood products that have transfused, but either way, Lilli is very sick. ~ I got to that point and started tearing up and Praying. So young, innocent and so much life to live. Well! I Posted her caring bridge link on FB and also a picture of her and Maddie sitting together a little over a year ago when they were both waiting for their Bone Marrow transplant along with a Prayer.

Survivor.. see it in her face!!

After that prayer I realized again!! Becki this is why you are active, you promised your grandchildren you would be there for them, to Pray with, to Play with, Walk with, live with and Love as a Healthy active Grandma!

Well I put my Knee and back brace on and then my sweats and shoes. Looked at Hubby and said I’m heading out to do the 23rd walk (fitness map Tracker name). He gave me that smile! I put my I pod on, looked at my watch and went out the door with a new attitude. As I was walking I prayed to God to give me a Great walk and keep the dogs in their yards (because I forgot my Plastic bat) and praised him every time I passed a yard with a barking dog that stayed. I was about half way through my walk and was feeling out of steam! NO!! this can’t be happening, Then I started praying for Maddie, Lili and all of the Families that have influenced my life with their Lives and Losses.. I can do this!!!

Well I made it back home feeling Good that I accomplished my walk even though my Body was doing it’s best to tell me I couldn’t do it. Lord I thank you for always being with me, you have never left me, you are always there right by my side. Yes I admit I don’t understand the Whys yet I do acknowledge there is a lesson in all I (we) go through. I am not in pain!!!! What these Children are going through is PAIN!!! How dare I feel sorry for myself.. I will do what I can to help myself become Better, Happier & Healthier person.
At my start/Stop point I Looked at my watch and said “Not Bad” I walked 3.32 Miles in 45 minutes and burned 353 Calories…

Look at this picture.. Look into Maddies Eyes. Not only do we see a Little girl with determination to get through this, we see a fight to keep going and not let these bumps in the road stop her... I have said it before and I will say it again.. Maddie is my Hero!! when I grow up I want to be like her.. A SURVIVOR

Thanks for letting me share & Thank you Jesus for allowing me to go through this. Without this I wouldn't be the person I am.
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    I admire your ability to overcome tribulation and preserver!
    Your drive is inspirational.

    My heart goes out to you for your discomfort and for Lilli's lungs.
    Hang on sweetheart. We are all holding our breath.....
    4007 days ago
    My heart goes out to you. I have a 14 month old granddaughter who has health issues but they do not compare to what yours is dealing with. Can not help but think your family is like mind, in thinking the girls are too young to have to deal with the hand they have been dealt with. Your whole family will be in my thoughts and prayers as each person deals with the issues at hand.
    4029 days ago
  • PRESHA911
    Sometimes, all we need is a reminder of why we deal with our personal struggles. Often times, the struggles of others is the only motivation we need.
    4030 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3048897
    love your heart sweet lady
    4104 days ago
  • SUNSHINE20001
    Wow, I really have no words...you are such a terrific person and inspiration...hugs to you and your family...I wish you only the best emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4108 days ago
    Ohhhh my dear darling friend. I was right there with you on this blog..as if we were sitting together over a cup of Joe and exchanging our lives! I feel sooo much about you and the wonderful person that you are. I love the description of your animals cuddling and offering their mommy special love! I love the way that you share your fierce faith and the love you have for your family. I'm congratulating you for not letting yourself get out of your exercise and making it a prayer walk! I wish I could give you a REAL hugger..but I guess a VIRTUAL one will be just as effective! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4127 days ago
    Becki, you make me appreciate my own life in a new way. I want to be like YOU when I grow up.
    4136 days ago
    Im happy to hear all the dogs stayed in their yard! I'm so proud of you for getting out there - even on a day when you didn't wake up feeling like it!
    4136 days ago
    Greetings, Becki.

    Thank you for sharing with all of us. Sometimes the Lord chooses to touch and heal a person, sometimes He does not. But He is always faithful and He does give us the strength to meet every challenge that is presented to us. I will remember you and Maddie in my daily prayers. He not only wants us to be survivors, but He wants us to be conquerors....through Him.

    Best wishes always.....Bill

    4136 days ago
    Brought tears to my eyes! Yes - this is why we do this! To be healthy and strong and be there for my family for a very long time. You are strong and amazing!!!! emoticon
    4136 days ago
    Yes, Becki, I look into Maddie's eyes and I see her grandma's eyes. You are connected. You are both survivors. emoticon
    4136 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2332407
    Great Inspiration to you. emoticon
    4136 days ago
    Not bad...heck, girl - YOU ROCK!

    He will lift you up when you need it - you know it was HIM who reminded you of that inspiration!

    Hugs and ibuprofen love, S.
    4136 days ago
    That was a marvelous blog Becki. I can certainly see where the strength and determination come from. Yayee gamma!! emoticon emoticon
    4136 days ago
    Oh, Becki...these are the moments I wish I could be there to give you a hug. Glad Jack and his wonderful self was there to do it for me (and better, I'm sure!) Such fierce faith and determination you show! Your kids and grandkids have a good role model to look to. Just remember, though, that its ok to address the pain and accept that its real sometimes. Yes, we need to keep going...but its ok to stop now and then too. Hope your days are less painful.
    4136 days ago
    Aw, Sweet Friend, I'm proud of you for getting out there for your (speedy!) walk. I love Prayer Walks. ♥ But I think I'm more proud of you for your amazing, tender heart for the children. You are their prayer warrior.

    Matt 25:21a
    4136 days ago
    Becki, you are a SURVIVOR too! YOU ROCK! Way to get your walk done and you were quite speedy at that! You made a decision for yourself today and i think that's wonderful. You live your life so much for others that doing something for yourself (knowing it will help you help them) is quite a feat. No bat needed, those dogs know who's the boss of the road when you walk by! Congrats, Becki.
    4136 days ago
  • COOP9002
    Looks like you've got all the inspiration you need.
    4136 days ago
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