I Don't Want to be Fat Anymore!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
So I pulled out old pictures today and saw myself go from different stages of my life, a Juniors 5 to Misses 16, down to a Misses 10, back to a Misses 16, and I am two pounds away from the Misses 18. AAHHH! I hate it. I am ready to take back my life. I am ready to get back to being that fine little thing I used to be, but how do I start, how do I take control? Just because I buy the Jenny Craig food doesn't mean that is what I will eat. Just because I have a tracker, doesn't mean I am tracking every bite, just because my alarm goes off an hour before I really have to get up, does not mean that I am going to get up and dance or kick box, or get on my Wii Fit, or Shape like I am suppose to. I am watching women at my work go from Misses 20 to Misses 16 and some are even getting ready to get down to Misses 12 when I know they were where I am just months ago. So what is it? Why is it that I cannot find the motivation to get started and stick to it? January was fabulous, I lost 8 pounds, but then I don't know what happened after that? Where did it all go? How did I get off track? Why did I gain 2 pounds back? I wish there was a magic drink, or a magic pill, and I could wake up and be skinny, but then have to commit to working out, and eating right. Why do I have to start now? I don't want to be fat anymore. Can anyone help?