So I've been doing a lot of thinking this week, along with watching videos on YouTube. I started watching Greg's videos ( www.youtube.com/thesiegs
), and he lost like 47 lbs in 10 weeks. Without counting calories. Without exercising for 5 hours a day.
I've been doing this for a month so far, staying completely on track, and I've mainly maintained or even gained.
I have to admit, I started getting a little jealous and resentful. But then I finally realized the difference between him and me. I wanted to blame it on hormones, but it's really MINDSET.
He wakes up in the morning and says, "self.. we're going to lose weight today. Let's have fun with this."
I wake up in the morning and say, "self.. we'll do our best and see if we can get something good out of it, okay?"
I was also really emotionally unstable the last 2 weeks, up until Tuesday this week. I completely gave in to the emotions, telling myself all the same lies I used to when I was 15. I'm worthless, I can't do anything right, why would anyone care about anything I do? BLAH BLAH BLAH!
No more! I am GOING to lose weight, I AM losing weight, and I WILL make the changes I'd only dreamt about.
Ever since Tuesday, I catch glimpses of myself in the mirror and go "heeey.. lookin' pretty good there".
My mind needs to lead the way before my body's going to believe that this is for real.