Sunday, March 14, 2010
My glucose came in @133
Not much happening today...a few hours of work and then last day to really rest up before hitting it again tomorrow.
Cindy is making some kind of treat for my youngest sister Alisson's birthday today...31, amazing young woman.
It's felt good to take a little break not only from working out so hard physically but from digging inside and working all of that out too...going into this weekend I was looking for balance, grace, kindness....trusting that I'm going to be ok, I'm doing my very best and that my life was given to me as a gift to enjoy.
Egg beaters & flourless banana pancakes for brunch today and probably some type of chick-flick, Cindy's choice...
Sometimes when I get confused about stuff that is new and my feelings get mixed up, I try to imagine what I would do if I did have the answers...almost like giving myself the ok to literally think outside the box, the framework I've created inside for so long is so very limited...to feel ok about resting is pretty new, not judging, not smothering myself with guilt and shame but taking the risk to walk into the grey, to let go of the all or nothing, black & white thinking and to just hang out in the middle with some calm, gentle clarity.
Have a really nice Sunday! Ryan