Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Yesterday was an ok day getting out and running errands w/Cindy. Got to see some friends that I have not seen in a few years and I did my cardio/walking at the boathouse park along the shore at Lake Wingra...it was really windy out and it felt great to be out there pushing myself.
I found myself feeling pretty tired and wiped out yesterday and just kinda full emotionally, lots of stuff to process and the feelings that came with getting out...big deal for me!
My nutrition meal plan has been a little sloppy over the last few days, in my mind it feels like I've almost given myself permission to relax a little and catch my breath after getting over the 100lb lost hump...I'm accutely aware of how I am and my patterns, I keep getting to know myself better and better and it just felt like this week has been full of tangible victories & changes for me, but a little messy nonetheless. I'm not gonna sweat it...rather I'm just going to do my best to be mindful today and head toward the weekend with some solid momentum.
My Grandmother Ellie is coming to visit on Saturday and Cindy & I are both looking forward to seeing her. It got a little tense last night between C & I, and we've since talked it through and are back where we need to be, but fighting sucks...but it's bound to happen once in awhile and it seems like not so often with us...but when we do...it's never fun for either of us. So, navigating your way through life, through all of this....it definitely can be daunting, overwhelming and as much I see myself going througheverything and coming out on the other side...inside I sometimes feel like I just don't have what it takes....so kind of feeling blah and sad today, but I trust that if I connect the dots today and do my best...it will pass.
Hope everyone has a great Wednesday! Ryan