Friday, April 02, 2010
Hey Good Morning!
My glucose came in @111 this morning and my weigh-in came up with a 1lb gain...obviously not as cool as a big loss...but overall I feel like my metabolism is really doing great burning through everything...I really upped my calories and carbs going into last weekend and I had a few lingering sloppy days...so a pound up, as much as I'd like to never see that sort of fluctuation...I'm cool with it and in the big scheme of things...no big deal!
The real stuff this week had to do with gaining back a bunch of my life...getting out and driving my truck again, walking and exercising at a few parks, seeing the sights, checking in with friends...yesterday Cindy even pushed me to go to the Super Target in Fitchburg w/her, I was at first not sure...I'm not a big fan of crowded places and unfamiliar spots...but it happened...no problem. I even did laps around the produce dept. while Cindy was shopping. Scary to share some this stuff, because these are the basics, but they are big steps for me getting healthy and taking my life back...this journey is mine, all mine and I'm really learning to be good to myself and trust that not only can I do this, but I'm already doing it...one step at a time. I saw a really heavy lady in the target store riding one of those scooter things, as I walked by...we caught eachother's eye and I can't be sure what she was thinking...I'd like to imagine that she was saying "you go dude!"...but she looked pretty unhappy and even though there was an obvious common bond/being obese...it wasn't a real friendy look. As we drove out of the parking lot and I saw this woman again scooting to her car...I just said to Cindy "I'm not judging...but I'm never gonna let that happen." I mean that, come hell or highwater...there might be ups and downs, ebbs and flows but I'm gonna keep at this no matter what.
It was real cool to see some friends like I mentioned...these are a few of the women at Mallatts on Monroe Street(JaJa & Susanna) where we ship all of our orders for the business...they hadn't seen me in the store for awhile and they want to take a picture.
Cindy & I are banging away on a long list today, lots to do and family company tomorrow. My 86 year old Grandmother is coming for a visit...so that'll be really cool to spend time with her.
I've got a training session at 1pm w/Annette today...gonna sweat a little and give myself some more esteem!
Have a great Friday, Ryan