Friday, April 16, 2010
... A-HA moment!! I was reading a blog entry just now ....
) and while reading I started to realize something .... when we give our power away, we sell ourselves short ... we lose who we are!!
I had a conversation with my sister earlier, and she told me that I needed to get in touch with our dad and tell him that she needed some help from him .... and as hard as it was, I told her that I didn't want to be in the middle!! She was totally cool about it .. and said she understood. BUT .. reading SUPERBABE118'S blog, just got me thinking. I really do believe that this has most likely, been the biggest issue I had over the past few years. My parents were struggling so much and having such issues and I felt so bad for them that I let them hijack my life .. and just kept giving more and more of my power away... everytime they would fight around my family, or bring their contention in the front door (they were living here for a little while) And not once did I stand up for my family or myself ... not til the very end of things when it was too late .. the damage was already done. And even tho they have moved on and have worked things out, the damage that was done to me is still there to some degree.
BUT ... it's all good. I have gotten past it, for the most part. And I am taking steps to reclaim my life!! And telling my sister to handle her own stuff with our dad, helped me in the effort to regain myself!!