Wednesday, May 12, 2010
I'm doing my best and that's the best I can do. I've felt this kinda crazy before in my life and truth be told that's about the hardest thing to sit with..."Am I crazy?"
I'm not, in my heart, in my guts I don't believe I'm crazy...but sometimes it sure feels like it. Living this life has been absolutely awesome, but exhausting and sometimes very, very lonely. I'm going to do my best today to just show up for myself, no big master plan or high expectations, just gonna try and get beyond this painful period a little bit at a time.
My life is going to be different going forward, scares me to death...almost.
I'm here, not lost...just finding my way and trying to survive these feelings.
Thank you to my friends here that have taken the time to express their support in such gentle and loving ways...thank you!
I'll be back again tomorrow, and the next day too...Ryan