Can't keep waiting
Sunday, May 30, 2010
I keep waiting for things to change, to get better before I start again.
I've never felt so quite alone. I seem to be surrounded by death, I'm losing
too many friends, mostly to illness, and its been too much for me,
I'm about to lose my best friend to cancer now too, and I'm tired of
burying my friends.
I'm tired of being alone, I just wanted someone to see me beyond my weight.
Its hard going through this alone, but I need to make some sort of positive
change, so I'm starting small. It's been 4 friends in about as many months,
and I don't want to join them cause I kept waiting to take care of myself,
so I did it alone, and kind of sad, but I drank my water, and went for a
walk...on purpose. And I'm going to do it today too.