Wednesday, June 23, 2010
I'm gonna go ahead and risk the jinx and say that yesterday by noonish, depression slinked away pretty defeated. I got Cindy to the plane on time, jammed some work through before meeting Annette at the pool around 10:30am and I then I just worked on our business website until about 5:30pm. I did a great job yesterday of connecting the dots with my meals. I guess I need to try and fold the habit of healthy mini-snacks (protein shakes for me) into my between meals schedule.
I'm looking at my history tracking so far and Annette has really helped uncover how my body operates...it's very efficient, sounds good if it was applying for a new job...but it's actually a real tough nut to crack. There is this fine line between when my body holds onto weight/fat and when it decides to release. Over the last few months not realizing it until yesterday, I had really backed off on "feeding" my metabolism little healthy meals every few hours throughout the day. So I'm looking at this from 2 angles...
I was losing more, erego my metabolism was probably firing faster when I was having muscle milk light scoops w/water 2x3 a day - between breakfast & lunch, between lunch & dinner and after dinner before bed. Providing my body regular, steady intake and then the other light bulb that went off is that each time I give my body some fuel it's an extra mini work-out for my metabolism.
So I'm really doing my best to follow this planof re-adding protein shakes since yesterday through the end of the week in the spirit of folding this helpful practice back into my routine successfully. Granted, I think this is where I struggle to connect ALL the dots every single day, I can do it and I feel great when I do...it's just that managing this kind of eating schedule is alot to factor in to my busy everyday life...so I can see that when I'm stressed, my old thinking of toughing it out through hunger or all the shame messages of starve to lose or that 'you're fat, don't eat" kick in. So, my job is to keep taking care of myself each day through healthy eating and exercise, and do my very best to tune out the lingering negative self-talk.
I'm so very thankful to all the great folks who support what I'm doing everyday, THANK YOU
Have a Smooth Wednesday, Ryan