Sunday, September 26, 2010
I had something happen this weekend that was done for fun but I also learned a lot and started thinking about things. This man told me that depression was getting me down and keeping me down. He said I had come so far in my life but had an opening in my life that depression just swwoped in and took over. I got to thinking that is so true. I had a moment where I did let my good nature slow down and I let the depression get me down. With my health I know the weight loss is very slow and will not speed up for a while. It is a matter of fact. But depression has really screwed with my mind. I have been brought way down, so far down that I can't see me anymore so this is my plan. It sounds weird but Im going to do it.
I am breaking up with me. My depressing me. I wouldn't stay with a guy who treated me like that so why should I stay with that attitude that treats me like that? I am going to let the happy loving inner me back out and get rid of that nasty evil side of me. I cant be treated like that anymore. I am actually going to write a letter then burn it so all the bad energy vibes go with it! Im not crazy and I hope youguys dont think I am. I am readdy to free my self. That is all :)