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5 Pounds Gained with 244 pounds of Life Experience...

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Gasp..I said it...my weight. Let me just say I'm even more proud to say the old number...

Let's spell it: two-hundred and ninety-one pounds!

I know what you could be thinking, and I thought it too...that was a lot.

Actually my real thought was, "Oh s***, how did I get here!"

That was 6 months ago, before I took real advantage of the lovely tools at Sparkpeople, and before I realized that I wanted to lose weight for me.

As I said, I gained 5 pounds. I know exactly what happened...I went to Vegas! emoticon
I know that I could of prevented this but...I didn't want to.

I am for once in complete control of my food intake and chose to enjoy myself on a once in a lifetime experience (yea, I don't get out much), and make the most of it.

I enjoyed myself so thoroughly on my vacation that I can't say I regret one minute. And believe me, I didn't disregard all my healthy lifestyle choices or it would of been a lot worse. I know that for a fact! Lol.

And yes Vegas is as magical as fairy tales, and I believe God touched his hands lightly on each and every morsel of food I tasted because that stuff just melted in my mouth and took me on journeys to far off lands where I was a queen and my subjects were fanning me and feeding me grapes...ok I'm back now but it was definitely awesome.

I think this experience has really taught me a lesson though.

For years and years of my life I would gain 10-20 pounds a year and have no idea why. I would go from starving myself, to binge eating, to eating whatever I wanted in moderation. Then when it came down to it, there was no way to track where everything went wrong.

I would look down at my feet sheepishly as my doctor told me: "You could stand to lose a few pounds." And then I would have to quickly devise an action plan to get him off my back.

Yea, I don't plan on having to do that ever again.

The last time I went to the doctor (which has been about 2 months now), they saw progress and I didn't have to explain my weight to him at all. I briefly mentioned I planned on losing weight and there were no more ifs, ands, or buts about it.

Confidence reverberated off me in leaps and bounds as I held my head up and replied "yes" to my doctor's surprised..."you lost weight!"

Of course I did, was what I said in my head. But I merely smiled and nodded as they took my blood pressure and continued on with my appointment.

Life experience I say, life experience.

Sparkpeople has helped me learn 2 things (obviously more than that, but that I can apply here): gaining weight is a part of weight loss, and learning life's lessons is an important part of weight loss.

If I never gained weight, that wouldn't be a real weight loss journey.

I would trudge lackadasically through my weight loss and everything would be so easy (I mean that would be awesome right?), but that's not reality.

The reality is that I ate a ton (like maybe a literal TON lol) in Vegas, and I enjoyed myself.

I know I probably ate too much (and drank a lot too emoticon...but its VACATION! lol), but I know when and why I gained 5 pounds, and I know how to fix it.

I definitely didn't know where to start before. I didn't know how to pull the thoughts together in my head because I had no strategy before, and I had no plan.

Sparkpeople taught me a lot of things, but I must say, I learned all these things and implemented them.

One day I made the mistake of saying that Sparkpeople was the reason I lost 46 pounds.


I'm the reason I lost 46 pounds.

So thank you Sparkpeople and thank you to me...you awesome girl you! I'm implementing new strategies that I can use the rest of my life!
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    I loved this blog!
    3902 days ago
    This was such a well written and thoughtful blog. It is so ironic to me that when we are at our heaviest, we are so afraid of the number on that scale. But when you take ownership of your life and decide to lose weight, saying that number gives you power because you know you will never end up there again. I believe that the only way a person can lose weight and keep it off is by being honest to ourselves. That is why I am proud to say that today, I am 245 pounds and every day getting closer to my goal. Thank you so much for the inspiration!
    3902 days ago
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    I've regained some pounds and I'm tired of being in the 250's. I'm very close to exiting that number and I don't plan to see it again. I just want to continue with seeing the number getting closer to the 200's and below. It's just a working progress for all of us. Keep up the good work. Much success on your journey.
    3914 days ago
  • MAIA2011
    Five pounds? That's what you get for waking up in Vegas. Heehee. Sorry, couldn't resist! I thought this was a fantastic blog and I especially appreciate your recognition that YOU lost 45 pounds, not SparkPeople. SparkPeople is awesome, of course, but I think that is what this journey is all about--taking back our own power! You are amazing!
    3917 days ago
  • SG11505
    I loved every word of this blog! I could feel your energy and joy and it was awesome! I am so happy for you that you went to Vegas in full control and made choices with no regrets and full accountability! From my own experience that is so much more progress than the number on the scale, because with out that awareness the number on the scale won't go and stay in the direction we want!
    3917 days ago

    I KNOW when I will gain weight, too! And it's not just vaca! That whipped cream on a Starbucks latte - yes, the barrista twisted my arm! :)

    Ms. Jaye
    3917 days ago
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