Gasp..I said it...my weight. Let me just say I'm even more proud to say the old number...
Let's spell it: two-hundred and ninety-one pounds!
I know what you could be thinking, and I thought it too...that was a lot.
Actually my real thought was, "Oh s***, how did I get here!"
That was 6 months ago, before I took real advantage of the lovely tools at Sparkpeople, and before I realized that I wanted to lose weight for me.
As I said, I gained 5 pounds. I know exactly what happened...I went to Vegas!
I know that I could of prevented this but...I didn't want to.
I am for once in complete control of my food intake and chose to enjoy myself on a once in a lifetime experience (yea, I don't get out much), and make the most of it.
I enjoyed myself so thoroughly on my vacation that I can't say I regret one minute. And believe me, I didn't disregard all my healthy lifestyle choices or it would of been a lot worse. I know that for a fact! Lol.
And yes Vegas is as magical as fairy tales, and I believe God touched his hands lightly on each and every morsel of food I tasted because that stuff just melted in my mouth and took me on journeys to far off lands where I was a queen and my subjects were fanning me and feeding me grapes...ok I'm back now but it was definitely awesome.
I think this experience has really taught me a lesson though.
For years and years of my life I would gain 10-20 pounds a year and have no idea why. I would go from starving myself, to binge eating, to eating whatever I wanted in moderation. Then when it came down to it, there was no way to track where everything went wrong.
I would look down at my feet sheepishly as my doctor told me: "You could stand to lose a few pounds." And then I would have to quickly devise an action plan to get him off my back.
Yea, I don't plan on having to do that ever again.
The last time I went to the doctor (which has been about 2 months now), they saw progress and I didn't have to explain my weight to him at all. I briefly mentioned I planned on losing weight and there were no more ifs, ands, or buts about it.
Confidence reverberated off me in leaps and bounds as I held my head up and replied "yes" to my doctor's surprised..."you lost weight!"
Of course I did, was what I said in my head. But I merely smiled and nodded as they took my blood pressure and continued on with my appointment.
Life experience I say, life experience.
Sparkpeople has helped me learn 2 things (obviously more than that, but that I can apply here): gaining weight is a part of weight loss, and learning life's lessons is an important part of weight loss.
If I never gained weight, that wouldn't be a real weight loss journey.
I would trudge lackadasically through my weight loss and everything would be so easy (I mean that would be awesome right?), but that's not reality.
The reality is that I ate a ton (like maybe a literal TON lol) in Vegas, and I enjoyed myself.
I know I probably ate too much (and drank a lot too
...but its VACATION! lol), but I know when and why I gained 5 pounds, and I know how to fix it.
I definitely didn't know where to start before. I didn't know how to pull the thoughts together in my head because I had no strategy before, and I had no plan.
Sparkpeople taught me a lot of things, but I must say, I learned all these things and implemented them.
One day I made the mistake of saying that Sparkpeople was the reason I lost 46 pounds.
I'm the reason I lost 46 pounds.
So thank you Sparkpeople and thank you to me...you awesome girl you! I'm implementing new strategies that I can use the rest of my life!