Sometimes more is more!
Saturday, October 16, 2010
I've waited a week to blog about this new plan because I tend to develop a "perfect" plan for losing weight and then completely forget it as soon as I see a chocolate chip cookie. This one, however, has been going extremely well so far.
I was having HUGE trouble with binges. I felt out of control pretty much every single day. It was torture. I would tell myself I'd control myself, eat sensibly, but I'd screw it up anyway. After almost a week of this I decided I'm just going to give myself permission to eat whatever I wanted. Crazily, after 3 days of freedom, I didn't want it anymore.
I felt ready for some restrictions, but I knew if I followed my impulse and severely cut down calories to make up for the past few days, I'd start my binge cycle again. So I kept the eat-whatever-I-want rule, but set a calorie range of 1750 (my basal metabolic rate) and 2000 (my daily caloric need minus 500 calories). It wasn't too hard to stick to this because 1750 is a lot more than I would normally allow myself when I'm on my game.
I lost 1.25 pounds in the three days I did this. I know most of that is because of how terrible I was before, but it was just the push I need. If I can lose weight eating that much, I should take advantage of that. For the past week I've been focusing on eating healthy foods to fill up that 1750-2000 calories and I'm still working out the balance between not eating enough and eating junk. I'm curious to see if I'll get good results at this next weigh-in.
I panic sometimes about how long it will take me to get to the weight I want to be at. I have 48 pounds to go just to get into the tip top of the healthy range, but I want to lose 67 pounds total. I know I'm lucky that it's not 167 or 267, but it seems so daunting. I think it's that feeling that makes me want to stop eating, which makes me eat like crazy. I'm doing my best to control it, and so far it seems to be working.
This feels like something I can keep up, so maybe it'll be the momentum I've been waiting for.