WHAT DOESN'T KILL ME...
Monday, November 15, 2010
So, here we are...Day one of yet another journey. I mean this in so many ways than one. Today was the first day of the rest of my life. Let me back track and fill you in on a lil something something about me.
My husband and I just recently decided that we were going to get a divorce. This was not something that was a rash decision...as it's been heading towards the inevitable for almost a year. I knew this change was going to bring about some difficult times for me and my daughter...but I was and am willing to step up to the plate.
For the last 4 years, I have been the sole bread-winner for our family of three. When I joined the Army in October of 2007 we agreed that he would stay home with the child since he would be working practically JUST to pay child care. So needless to say, I became quite comfortable in that role as I usually came home to a cooked meal, or clean house, child fed already...you know. He is an aspiring chef and I was always a little too eager to enjoy his new creations and concoctions that would make you want to slap ya mama...I mean the man CAN COOK his behind off...I gotta give it to him.
Well...with his recent departure back to the mainland...I was dreading how this new schedule of me and my daughter's was gonna work out. I work at Tripler Army Medical Center in the Orthopedic Clinic as the X-ray tech. I have to be at work at 7:30. Before work I have to be at PT (Physical Training) at the track at 6:00am. And before that I have to drop my child off at the before school care which doesn't open until 5:30am. So, like many people do..I started trying to calculate how many hours of sleep I would get that night. LOL!
Gratefully things went off without a hitch this morning. It was rough, but we made it thanks to alot of preparation the night before. I am still getting the hang of it...but I know it will get better with time as we continue to get adapted to our new schedule. I had a hard time falling asleep last night, partly because I was thinking about the work day ahead...making sure that I had gotten everything together so the morning would go smooth as possible. By the time I finally got to sleep, it seemed as if I had just closed my eyes when my alarm started blaring by my head...acknowleding that the bewitching hour was upon us...lol! 4:15am had gotten here just a little to soon for my liking... but, this gave me 30 minutes of alone time before I got the little one up for the day. I pulled up Pandora on my computer (the best thing since sliced bread), got some up beat music goin, had HLN on the muted tv...and proceeded to gather all my things for the day.
My daughter offered no opposition when I went to wake her up at 4:55am...which shocked the HECK outta me considering her normal wake up time is 6:15am!! She got her self dressed, brushed her teeth & washed her face, AND did her hair and we were out the door by 5:14am..ONE minute before my goal time...HALLELUJAH!! lol
After waiting for Child Care to open their doors at 5:30am...it was a mad dash to the PT field/track for PT. Traffic wouldn't have been so bad if it wasn't raining ...but I still made it 10 minutes prior to...with a few minutes to spare. For PT we did hills...ugh! Boy, am I feeling it in my knees!! We also did lunges, leg lifts, crunches, and a few other core exercises after we had finished our cardio. We did our hour mandatory work out time...and off to work I came.
I haven't felt this good in a long while...I don't know if it's because of the awesome workout this morning, or the emotional baggage that I've lost, or the fact that I reached a short-term goal today...to get through 7:00AM! lol
I know that there will be days that things don't go as planned...when I'm gonna want a fat, juicy, greasy, burger...or just not want to do anything but knock back a few strong @ss drinks...but I am DETERMINED to take one day at a time...I am DETERMINED to stick with it...I am DETERMINED to get back on the horse if I fall off...because I know...
"What doesn't kill me...leaves me ALIVE to live another day...and GET IT RIGHT!" ;o)