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WHAT DOESN'T KILL ME...

Monday, November 15, 2010

So, here we are...Day one of yet another journey. I mean this in so many ways than one. Today was the first day of the rest of my life. Let me back track and fill you in on a lil something something about me.

My husband and I just recently decided that we were going to get a divorce. This was not something that was a rash decision...as it's been heading towards the inevitable for almost a year. I knew this change was going to bring about some difficult times for me and my daughter...but I was and am willing to step up to the plate.

For the last 4 years, I have been the sole bread-winner for our family of three. When I joined the Army in October of 2007 we agreed that he would stay home with the child since he would be working practically JUST to pay child care. So needless to say, I became quite comfortable in that role as I usually came home to a cooked meal, or clean house, child fed already...you know. He is an aspiring chef and I was always a little too eager to enjoy his new creations and concoctions that would make you want to slap ya mama...I mean the man CAN COOK his behind off...I gotta give it to him.

Well...with his recent departure back to the mainland...I was dreading how this new schedule of me and my daughter's was gonna work out. I work at Tripler Army Medical Center in the Orthopedic Clinic as the X-ray tech. I have to be at work at 7:30. Before work I have to be at PT (Physical Training) at the track at 6:00am. And before that I have to drop my child off at the before school care which doesn't open until 5:30am. So, like many people do..I started trying to calculate how many hours of sleep I would get that night. LOL!

Gratefully things went off without a hitch this morning. It was rough, but we made it thanks to alot of preparation the night before. I am still getting the hang of it...but I know it will get better with time as we continue to get adapted to our new schedule. I had a hard time falling asleep last night, partly because I was thinking about the work day ahead...making sure that I had gotten everything together so the morning would go smooth as possible. By the time I finally got to sleep, it seemed as if I had just closed my eyes when my alarm started blaring by my head...acknowleding that the bewitching hour was upon us...lol! 4:15am had gotten here just a little to soon for my liking... but, this gave me 30 minutes of alone time before I got the little one up for the day. I pulled up Pandora on my computer (the best thing since sliced bread), got some up beat music goin, had HLN on the muted tv...and proceeded to gather all my things for the day.

My daughter offered no opposition when I went to wake her up at 4:55am...which shocked the HECK outta me considering her normal wake up time is 6:15am!! She got her self dressed, brushed her teeth & washed her face, AND did her hair and we were out the door by 5:14am..ONE minute before my goal time...HALLELUJAH!! lol

After waiting for Child Care to open their doors at 5:30am...it was a mad dash to the PT field/track for PT. Traffic wouldn't have been so bad if it wasn't raining ...but I still made it 10 minutes prior to...with a few minutes to spare. For PT we did hills...ugh! Boy, am I feeling it in my knees!! We also did lunges, leg lifts, crunches, and a few other core exercises after we had finished our cardio. We did our hour mandatory work out time...and off to work I came.

I haven't felt this good in a long while...I don't know if it's because of the awesome workout this morning, or the emotional baggage that I've lost, or the fact that I reached a short-term goal today...to get through 7:00AM! lol

I know that there will be days that things don't go as planned...when I'm gonna want a fat, juicy, greasy, burger...or just not want to do anything but knock back a few strong @ss drinks...but I am DETERMINED to take one day at a time...I am DETERMINED to stick with it...I am DETERMINED to get back on the horse if I fall off...because I know...

"What doesn't kill me...leaves me ALIVE to live another day...and GET IT RIGHT!" ;o)
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  • ESYLVANTUTOR207
    Wow...Just happened to come across your Blog and first I want to say a big "thank you" for serving our great country. Words can not express the importance of what you are doing. I also want you to know that I admire your courage and positive attitude about life and where it has led you. You are an amazing woman and you have a wonderful daughter. I don't know many children who WOULDN'T complain about getting up at 4:55 AM.
    You have made the most of your situation and have planned how to move forward in your life and that's great! Good luck on your weight loss journey....I am here for support as are so many people on Spark. Have a great Thanksgiving! emoticon
    3905 days ago
  • LANDREADANIELS
    THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR ENCOURAGING WORDS...IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME. emoticon
    3910 days ago
  • ANTCAL70
    I am so proud of you and feel blessed to be apart of your fitness journey. Like you said, you are a DETERMINED and might I add STRONG individual with a challenging BUT ATTAINABLE goal ahead of you. You will accomplish all that you deserve...now let's get to our workout...
    3910 days ago
  • WANAKA
    Wow Landrea, you have your plate full! Kudos for doing all that you do - serving our country, being a single mom, on a fitness journey...

    Have a great adventure! emoticon

    Aloha!
    3911 days ago
  • CALIKIKI
    With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts.
    Eleanor Roosevelt

    So nice to meet you and hear your story! Welcome aboard! I look forward to hearing and learning more about you and your goals!
    3912 days ago
  • DEKA2010
    Ditto Heavensfae in her thanks for your service. You are an awesome woman for your service to US, going through a divorce, raising a daughter, your first blog, working out and....I'm sure the list could go on!

    Thanks for your comments to my blog, both firsts here for me also. Congrats to both of us!

    Ya know, we can do this!!! If you ever need encouragement I'm here!

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    Oh, and btw, my dad was in the service and we spent 3 years at Scholfield Barracks. Spent a few hours at Tripler for a broken arm one time. Ouch!!!
    3912 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/15/2010 4:39:24 PM
  • HEAVENSFAE
    emoticon on your 1st official blog!

    First, let me take a moment and thank you for serving! You are bold, courageous and absolutely a hero in my book before we even get to your private life.

    I applaud you for taking on the challenging role of single, working Mom. You are one strong, resilient woman.

    I can't believe your busy day begins at 4:15 and you actually manage to get an awesome workout in there as well.

    You are doing an excellent job. Your blog has inspired me today, so much so that (even though its an off day for training) I'm gonna get out there and get a few miles in before dinner. Thanks for sharing your day with us. I know it was really encouraging for me to read.
    3912 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/15/2010 4:03:59 PM
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