Interesting night, really motivational actually..
Sunday, December 05, 2010
So, hung out with my dad for a while to get me out of this house! Where I am stranded Sat & Sun 9am - 8pm or later... phew! Sometimes I'll take my daughter for a walk to the park or we'll go out to see my mom/friends ect. But really! I was so bored today. I find it harder to not eat when I'm sitting at home.. doing absolutely nothing. Of course I could get some kind of work out dvd, oh.. wait, I have a few of those. More then a few really, but that's not what this blog is even about!
So, I went christmas shopping with my father, and my daughter. We were out for a little while and I was starting to get hungry. Today just one of those days where I have been watching what I was eating but as the day was going by I was steadily losing focus.. So, I told him he could just take me to publix and I could find something in the deli.
Ohhh, did I FIND something in the deli. Potato wedges and Buffalo wings, sounds perfect? WRONG. My dad comes up and says "are you REALLY sure that's what you want? It's a little on the "heavier" side..."
Now ladies and gents! He did not say this to be rude, or at least I don't THINK so. My dad used to tease me over my weight. He would tell me I didn't "look" hungry. It really killed me self esteem, but it's just my dads kind of humor. I know he's seen my weight go up, then down, then up again when I was pregnant, and steadily back down. It really got me wondering though, if he's paying this much attention to what I eat should be.
Not when I "feel" like it, or when it feels like the right thing to do. If I really want to reach my goal weight, then I need to realize I AM the only person that can get me there! It was such a helpful sign for me! Monday morning I will be back in the gym sweating all my doubts out!
I CAN GET there!