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What not to do! at the bottom of a downward spiral.

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

We all read them every day, these great blogs that are so encouraging, so positive, so helpful. I love those blogs, and I love when I can write one that is helpful to anyone. But this blog may not be one of those, this blog will be truthful and honest, and hopefully it will be inspiring for me, and I am hoping that it will help anyone else out there that is having a tough time.
If you keep up with me, you will know that I have a real battle with weight; it is the biggest hurdle in my life. I have many emotional and physical issues with food. I have made many strides to get things under control. I have had many successes in doing this, but I have also had many failures. I know we call this a lifestyle change, I know you are not supposed to deprive yourself, but if I don’t deprive myself, then I end up back in the same place that I started at. So for this blog instead of telling you all the things that I have done to loose weight, I will tell you all things NOT TO DO TO LOOSE WEIGHT!!! These are the things that have put me at the bottom of a very long and downward spiral!!!
I will list all the things that set this ugly thing into motion.
1. I started skipping workouts, at first it was just once in a while, then once a week, then 2-3 times a week. DON’T SKIP WORKOUTS!!!!
2. I said to myself, I can do this with out tracking my food. NO I CAN’T, I HAVE TO TRACK EVERY BITE EVERY DAY!!!
3. It’s ok to have candy! NO IT’S NOT FOR ME! ONE LEADS TO 20!!!!
4. I stopped commenting on blogs, and other people success or failures; I don’t need to log in today. SPARK IS AMAZING SUPPORT, USE IT!!!!
5. I stopped pre-planning and preparing my own meals. BEING PREPARED IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF THIS!!!!
6. What will one trip to jack in the box hurt!!! NO FAST FOOD, I AM LIKE A JUNKIE IT SENDS ME DOWN A VERY BAD PATH!!!
7. I don’t want to be a pain, and order my meals custom to my needs. I AM PAYING FOR IT, IF I WANT IT WITH OUT SAUCE AND BUTTER, THAT IS HOW I AM GOING TO GET IT.
8. I am not hungry in the mornings, why should I eat breakfast if I am not hungry! I NEED BREAKFAST, IT STARTS MY DAY OFF ON A HEALTHY NOTE.
9. I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, by turning down there homemade food or treats. IF YOU GET YOUR FEELINGS HURT BECAUSE I CHOOSE LIFE OVER DOUBLE FUDGE BROWINES, THEN THAT IS YOUR PROBLEM.

So I have gained 15 pounds!!! Yes you read that correctly! I have not exercised, I have not tracked, I have ate any and everything that I want!!!! I have excuses, but you know what they say about excuses!!! I have had some health issues going on, but having an un-healthy diet sure is not going to help anything!!! Getting no physical activity is not going to make me feel better!

I woke up this morning and I worked out!!! I prepared my breakfast and lunch. I will print this out and read my do’s and don’ts when I am having a tough time. I can do this, I can loose weight with the best of them. I have lost and kept off 180 pounds!!! I have a goal in mind, and I know what to do to achieve this goal.

I want to thank all you lady’s that support me each day. Thank you all so much for the goodies, for the comments, for the drop ins, I love each and every one of you.
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    What goes on can come off! I rooting for you! I know you can do it!

    2225 days ago
    I know, it's a long time ago, and you have moved on. But I just reread this blog and thought how great it was. While I love the positive too, sometimes the negative is what we need to read. Just to know someone else is going through the same thing.
    3689 days ago
  • SUCESS65
    Thanks for sharing this with us. we all slip and mess up we are human and as long as we live we will be fighting the desires of this old flesh. like you said you know what to do & you have done it before etc... congrats on getting up and starting off again anew. your posts have really been a blessing to me and a great help & source of inspiration. they still are. you go girl emoticon
    3852 days ago
  • BOVEY63
    I can certainly understand your struggles and how easy it is to slip back into the old routine. I love how you responded to each issue - something we all need to do in order to keep ourselves going.
    It's a new year and you have a wonderful attitude!
    3858 days ago
    thanks for sharing this, it was just what I needed to hear to help me continue on the path
    3877 days ago
    Thanks for sharing reality with me, I appreciate it.
    3881 days ago
    Good for you! That's really what SP is all about, not what works for the general public, but finding out what works for you! It's hard to be honest with yourself, but you're rocking it!
    3887 days ago
    You can do this. You said so yourself! And yeah, 15 pounds, not great, but if you stop now - not too bad, either! In the big picture, it's a hiccup, not the end of the world.

    You are strong, powerful and brilliant! You are awesome and amazing! You know what to do and ARE DOING IT!

    Hugs, and more hugs!
    3888 days ago
  • PAULA3420
    This was a very POSITIVE blog for me. I am so thankful that I picked it to read today. I am making some of the same mistakes you have listed here in your blog. For instance; #1, I am in the 2nd week of missing my scheduled workouts. Just too busy with work and life is my excuse. Really?

    And #9, sure gave me a good laugh. RIGHT ON!!

    I think you have just climbed a very steep hill and WOW you learned so much on your way UP to the TOP. and, now you can see what y ou want and need to do to stay at the TOP. I KNOW YOU WILL emoticon

    Paula emoticon SPARK ON!!
    3888 days ago
    You may have lost the battle, but you most certainly will win the war! Thanks for sharing your struggle.
    3888 days ago
    Thanks for sharing, that had to be hard. Remember, life happens and we all have our bad times. What is important is you got back on track. That was a just a detour, now you are on the correct path and will get to where you are going. You are a very inspiration person to me and have come so far. I know you can do it. Believe in yourself, I believe in you!!
    3888 days ago
    This truly is a battle to a healthier lifestyle and sometime we are winning and sometimes we are losing. Glad to see you are back fighting!!
    3888 days ago
  • LDY_ALI_79
    emoticon Way to take it back to the basics!! emoticon
    3888 days ago
    Love, Love, Love this...It is EXACTLY the pep in my step that i needed. I will print it out as well!!
    3888 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1276095
    My son is uber picky too! I have struggled his whole life (now 16!) finding foods that he will eat. It may seem cruel to some, but I began asking he eat at least one bite of every food I prepare - veggies, fish, meat. there were some horrid faces, threats of vomit, and general displeasure, but guess what - he eats with the rest of us now.

    I learned that some people are born with more taste receptors than others and foods can be overwhelming for them. They need to adapt to that sensory overload. It can take 10-12 times trying a new food before they quit balking at the newness & many times more before they find they don't hate it (I don't think he will ever "like" broccoli, but he will eat it without much fuss)

    That being said I always do have something he does like on the table too, so he can enjoy a healty portion of that as well (current favorite - PastaRoni - YUCK!) Oddly enough he has also learned to like a lot of foods - one of his favorites is fish - he would eat that 5 x per week if I could afford it that often (and pizza once a week, and tacos on Tuesday) I hope you find a compromise that will allow you and your kids to eat well.
    3888 days ago
    Great blog and all very true.
    3889 days ago
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  • no profile photo CD704044
    emoticon Believe me when I say I truly understand
    I to have been there many times!
    Buit you are here and that is what matters you keep going my emoticon

    emoticon Debbie
    3889 days ago
  • KMARTIN9061
    Girl, you basically read my mind. I almost feel as if I wrote this blog! We can do this, and we CAN get back on track. What we've done is said and done... now we just have to get back to where we were. It's not hard - we already know we can do it, right?!

    I picked up a bad, bad, bad, bad habit while being "away from spark" ... smoking :(

    It almost makes you feel like you're back at square one... but we know we're not. I've only gained 4 lbs in the past month, since completely quitting calorie counting, eating healthy, working out (I've seriously done about 4 workouts in the past month - if I'm lucky), and starting cigarettes.

    We're gonna get through this!!!

    3889 days ago
    Today is the day! emoticon
    3889 days ago
    Thank you for your honesty! You know we are all cheering you on, you've already come so far! The good thing is that you haven't given up the fight!
    3889 days ago
  • METIS457
    You are getting back on track. You know the things you need to do. Quit beating yourself up over mistakes and move forward.
    3889 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6156797
    The fact that you have already lost 180 pounds (and then some) is amazing. It shows that you can get through this. You are doing an amazing job, and honestly, it is hard for me to keep going through this holiday season. I am having a hard time, but the workouts are the only things keeping me from gaining more weight than I have!
    Good luck and be sure to come around more often! Missed seeing your encouraging updates!
    3889 days ago
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