I'm tired...maintenance is hell.
Monday, December 20, 2010
I know why people fall off the maintenance wagon. After awhile you get tired of having to watch every bite you put in your mouth, and this is KEEPING IT OFF, NOT TAKING IT OFF! Losing was easy compared to this.
In the beginning there were lots of changes I could make. I stopped drinking sodas of any kind and started drinking water, I stopped eating fast food breakfasts and lunches, I started exercising regularly, I started eating more fruits and vegetables. I dropped weight pretty steadily for about a year. Then I hit a plateau. I decided I was at a pretty good weight even though I would have liked to lose about 5 pounds more but it wasn't moving so I decided this must be where my body wanted to be so I started trying to maintain. Then my weight started to creep up ever so slowly. Nothing alarming and my clothes were fitting fine so I didn't worry. Then I decided to give a little more intense exercise a try so I started Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred a try. It seemed to work at first, I lost about 3 pounds, then I got a cold and didn't workout for about a week. Starting back over again was soooo hard, harder than starting the first time. I gained back the 3 and have been moving slowly up the scale since then. I know I have built muscle so the weight alone isn't that bad...it's that my pants are beginning to feel a little more snug in the waist, my main trouble zone and the first place I always notice fat gain.
So what am I to do? I know I need to get my calories back under 1500 and I suppose I will have to keep them that low always to keep this #$%@&$@#%!!!! fat off my belly 4-ev-er!
I DO NOT want to grow out of my jeans. I guess this is what it's like to get old, your metabolism just craps out on you and no amount of exercise or muscle mass will get it back. (my arms look like Rosie the Riveter).
I just don't know where to go from here, back to 1300 a day I guess, I did it once but it seems harder to keep it that low anymore. I've kept all my healthy habits so there is nothing big I can change. All I can do now is give up any remaining good stuff I am still eating.
No, I do not want to go back where I was. I'm not giving up. Maybe I'm just tired or whatever. My waist line has always been my worst problem area, my waist is what grows out of my pants first, then the next size up doesn't fit right either, still too snug in the waist and big baggy in the back! I hate it.
Sorry, I guess I'm just having a little pity party tonight and it's not even TOM!