Crap! It is fat!
Monday, December 27, 2010
I put on some pants that I had not worn in a while, they are tight. I could wear them but I could definitely feel the difference, they were almost loose when I wore them a month ago. I'm exercising and drinking my water, but I think this holiday season has been rough on the total calorie intake. I'm doing the best I can but I guess I'll have to get past this and go back to the 1300 - 1400 calories a day thing.
The thing is I'm doing tons of exercise, Jillian Michaels and Leslie Sansone. I really have not fallen off the wagon or back into bad habits. Just too many desserts and sweets around, plus more big meals than I would normally eat.
It is a little depressing, I just wonder how big I would be if I weren't watching everything I eat and exercising? It feels like my body had decided this is the end of the famine and wants to pack on all the fat it can find. I really do kind of feel like I am swelling up by the second, it's not a good feeling and I don't like it at all!
Maybe when January gets here and I can get back to my regular schedule and eating habits I will be able to get this under control, but I'm worried because I haven't really been able to lose any weight in the past year, just holding steady most of the time. But now I really do need to lose about 10 pounds (again). sigh.