I just don't get it
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
I don't know what else to do. It seems my body wants to take every stray calorie, turn it into fat and store it on my belly. It maybe my imagination but it seems to swell up every single day.
I exercise, I drink water, I eat fruit, I track everything I eat and try to keep it under 1500 at least. Today it was 1565 but I burned 566 with exercise and ended up with a -660 for the day. I don't do that well everyday but I do on a lot of days. It just doesn't seem to work like it did at first.
I was doing great and got to 144 a little over a year ago. Then Thanksgiving came and I went up to 147, I figured I could lose that again easy. Wrong, I have not been under 147 since and in the last few months it has been slowly but surely creeping up. I was doing mostly Walk Away the Pounds for exercise so I thought maybe I needed something a little more intense with more strength training. Like they say in the commercials for those exercise gadgets "turn your body into a calorie burning furnace!" All I needed was to build some muscle, right? So I got some Jillian Michaels videos and started doing them and at first it seemed to be working and I lost 4 pounds!! Yea! But then I got a cold and didn't work out for a week, but no matter I thought, it was working and I'll just jump right back on it and keep going. Duh, it didn't work that way, it seemed harder starting over than it did starting it to begin with. Then it just didn't work, I gained back the 1st 4 I lost plus some. And no it's not just muscle. I have built muscle, I can see it, in my calves my thighs and my biceps look like Rosie the Riveter! (I also do push up's in sets of 20 everyday). I know it's not just the muscle because my pants are getting tight on me. I have three pairs of slacks I hadn't worn in awhile and when I tried to wear them the other day they wouldn't even zip!!!
My waist is definitely bigger, and my stomach. This is where I always gain the fat first and it is what always throws me into a bigger size pants.
I don't know what to think, I don't know what else to do. I was 154.4 this morning, I can't believe I'm almost back to 155. What if I can't stop it? What if it just keeps going until I hit 186 where I was when I found Sparkpeople even with me fighting it?
It's not fair, I keep thinking maybe it's age. I just turned 47 and I know many things are different than when I was younger.
I am on birth control pills, but I was on them when I lost the 40 pounds in the beginning. The only thing that is different is the ones I take now are a higher dose than the first ones were. I know some women think they make them gain weight or keep them from losing but I have taken them off and on most of my adult life and don't recall ever having this problem before.
My nutrition and fitness trackers are public and I try to be as honest and accurate on them as I can so if anyone would like to have a look feel free. Be aware if the calories show less than 1000 it means I DIDN'T track everything that day. It sometimes happens on the weekends. For exercise I'm doing a combination of Walk Away the Pounds and 30 Day Shred, some days I do both.