Honest ain't easy
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
So after a LONG break from SparkPeople I came back a couple of weeks ago. It started with finding I could track my foods and water intake with a mobile app on my BlackBerry. Gadget stuff? Yes, please. So then I hopped online to fully refresh myself. Then once I started setting my realistic weight loss goal...to my happ(ier) weight I realized it wasn't so daunting. It's tangible.
So I'm pleasantly surprised to see my numbers drop over the past couple of weeks. But it hasn't been easy to switch over and see my eating habits in black and white. Now, I normally eat relatively healthy and balanced but there are plenty of times I do not. I have a blog where I update my healthy and unhealthy habits but I don't use it as a food journal and I obviously can't calculate the calories the same way. As much as I hate counting calories, I am well aware this is how I need to keep myself in check.
So I'm working on really seeing my habits and not just generalizing because that's where I get off track. By off track I'm not just talking about weight and I'm not really talking about that in general. I'm uncomfortable in my body right now. Sure, I can still be happy and notice my improvements in my muscle tone but I'm uncomfortable with and in my body. That's not a good feeling. But it's a feeling that kicked me here. So I'm trying to embrace my uncomfortable self and help her. And that's a step in the right direction.