Losing the Spark... :(
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Well, it seems that March hasn't been a great month for me, either. January was awesome. I was doing basically 2-hr workouts 6 x week and really watching sodium and protein intake. I lost all of the weight that I put on over the holidays and was feeling really strong. I would say that I'd lost all of my water weight and had never looked that good (post-baby). February came and I got sick a couple of times and it threw me off P90X so I just did what I could and swore to do better this month.
Well, this month is almost over and I've yet to start back on P90X. The first week of the month I did okay, but then I got sick again and the week after that TOM visited and my energy was totally zapped. I think my hormones are still trying to get back to normal since I stopped nursing. This week, I've been working out some, about every other night, but I haven't been as strict on my diet. I've actually gotten to where I'm not even logging my food. To make matters worse, I've been baking and making tons of sweets here lately. I've found its something I enjoy, and could possibly get into for profit. The bad thing about it (other than the obvious) is that it takes up my time and energy for working out. So again, I find myself needing to balance my life. With trying to prep the house to list for sale, pack and purge things around the house, and looking after a rambunctious nearly 3-year old boy 24/7, I'm dead on my feet come evening. I don't wanna do anything except watch tv, eat sweets and relax. Well how convenient! Guess when my workout time is?
Somehow I've gotta get it back together. I've never felt better physically than I did in January. I was sore at times but I really felt great. My muscles were growing and my core felt rock solid, even though it definately wasn't. I think being away from Sparkpeople has really hurt my motivation. I also think part of it was that I was simply doing too much, making everything about my goals too complicated and I burned out.
I really don't wanna go run tonight. I feel so sluggish, I'm dehydrated, and I'm tired. How am I gonna make it 3 miles? Ugh...