Loving the Body I Have While Working to Improve It
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I have always struggled with body issues. I am the eldest in a family with 3 girls (and one boy!), but I was never referred to as the "pretty one" or the "skinny one." I was always the "fat girl" or the "smart girl." I learned to brush the hard feelings aside, but really, it bothered me that people never called me pretty or associated beauty with how much one weighed.
As an adult, my views on my body have changed. However, even though I love my curves and the soft, fleshy parts of my body that scream "WOMAN!", I am still displeased with the fullness of my belly or the bloated feeling I get when I don't fit into a piece of clothing. I stress over the pudginess of my thighs and the uncomfortable feeling I get when they rub together. I love my body, but I know I can make it look better so I can love my body more.
My weight loss goal is 50 lbs. That will bring me to 130, which is still above my ideal weight of 105. I don't know if I want to be at that weight. I don't want to lose my Venus naturalis shape-- the form that makes me feel sexy, the form that makes me feel me. We'll see what happens when I reach that point.
While working to improve my body, I started a fashion blog so I can show the world that one can be beautiful even when losing weight. I am displeased about some parts of my body and am working towards making it more pleasing to me, but that doesn't mean I have to hate it.