Enough is enough- Again!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I have said it before and yet, I will keep saying it until I get the hang of it I guess because I am just NOT giving up! I have had enough of this roller coaster that I am on- that I knowingly put myself on! I do so good for a while, then I just go through these periods where I just give in and let my guard down along with all my will power. I am so tired of continually losing, gaining, losing, and gaining the same 5-6 pounds over and over. I am SO tired of it being completely in my hands and not taking control to make it stop! I am SO OVER IT!!!!
I start every day out excellent- I eat a great breakfast, lunch, snacks, everything going as planned, but when it comes time for dinner, I just get fed up and feel like I should be able to eat what I want. Then I don't stop and it is one terrible snack after another until I am just horrified with myself and commit that "tomorrow" I will do better. Then "tomorrow it is the same exact thing all over again. Arrrgggh!! Enough is enough!!
Yesterday was a successful day for my calories and I am very excited to keep it going, I am determined to take my strength back- to put my mind and myself over my weaknesses. Tonight I am taking several kids to the movie and I have committed to buying myself only water. I did this once last month and I lived through it, so I am sure I can do it again. It really is just a matter of will! And I WILL!!
I plan for today to be another great day and I am determined that it will be and that I will get rid of that rebounding 5-6 pounds for good and keep on moving so that I can finally make my way to one-derland! I can't wait, and I can't do it unless I let myself be a winner! Time to take the bull by the horns and remember what I really want is the long term satisfaction of success, not short term gratification that leaves me feeling guilty and weak! I am STRONG and I WILL SUCCEED!