3 months in and I'm a veteran??
Sunday, April 10, 2011
I got a call the other day, or actually an email, from a lady who's about to have a surgical procedure similar to the one I had - she's having a wrap, slightly different from a gastric band.
Anyway, she was reaching out to me - me! - for advice and emotional support. I was flattered, and slightly worried. My weight loss since surgery has been consistent, with few setbacks. And so far I've been good with my dieting and exercise. But sometimes, not often but enough that I remember, I wake up in a cold sweat. Suppose I 'forget' how to eat right? Suppose I don't feel like exercising anymore, and that feeling is stronger than the desire to be healthy and lose weight? Suppose I have a huge emotional issue (loss of a relative, job, or something) that causes me to fall back? Could I ever recover from that and get back on course?
These are not idle questions for me. Before surgery I've had seasons where I made really good progress, losing over 50lbs in one instance, only to falter and lose all the grounds I've gained. I had a period when I lost so much weight, I was borrowing my friend's clothes. But within 2 years it was back, and 2 years more I was 30lbs higher and climbing. I remember my boyfriend at the time looking at me and telling me, in a non-judgemental way, to 'watch it', that is to be careful not to gain more weight. I heard him, but he might have been talking to a stone for all the reaction he got from me.
So anyway, here I am barely 3 months post-op, and someone thinks I'm a role model? I thought about it, and realized, I'm the one putting unnecessary pressure on myself. I need to celebrate exactly where I am today, weight-wise but also in terms of the journey itself. Sure, I might have a bad patch soon, or a really long plateau. But I need to remember these times, when the motivation is high, the external factors are benign or neutral, the weight is coming off 'effortlessly'. And be thankful for these times. And share these experiences with others, to encourage both them and me.
I met my 3 month goal today, a few days ahead of schedule!