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Sunday, May 01, 2011
Today is the last day of my Spring Break and what a Spring Break it has been! Picture all those young people having a blast in all those famous spring break places where they can unleash their wild side and have a blast. Well… mine wasn’t anything like that. Or maybe it was but the only thing that came unleashed was my self destructive behavior. I slept in, I didn’t log my food. I didn’t exercise. The only thing I was consistent with was checking in with Spark People everyday (to get my points – LOL)
The first 3 days were pretty good, I worked in my yard. Did a lot of weeding and planting. I wore my pedometer and even though I did not get on my treadmill, I logged in more steps than ever. I reupholstered my outdoor barstools. The 4th day, I was so sore, I could barely walk.
I had so many things on my to do list and I barely made a dent. If I have to look on the positive side of things I have had some break through moments in self-discovery.
I realize now how important it is for me to have a set routine. I know during a regular work week that I eat 3 meals a day and 2 or 3 snacks. Even though I eat the same stuff almost every day, I can deal with it. I don’t have a problem with logging because all I have to do is copy and paste. But this week, with no routine, I just ate whatever and whenever and to tell you the truth, I am scared to death to get on that scale. I think I’m going to wait one more week and get back on the healthy eating track again before I step on that monster and see those dreaded numbers.
I was so looking forward to retiring at the end of this school year. Our school district had offered us an early retirement package that was hard to refuse. I applied for it, but unfortunately it was not approved by the board so that means another 2 years of work for me. I was very disappointed and went through some agonizing, emotional eating over the whole thing, but I now realize that retirement would not be beneficial to me at this time. Can you imagine, me losing control of everything I have learned after just one week… what would happen if I retired? I’m not ready yet. I’m going to have to go back to working on my healthy eating lifestyle regardless of weather I’m at work or not. I have to make healthy eating a habit that is as natural as breathing. Something that I just do routinely without having to think about it.
Even though I have logged on to SP everyday, I did not open my email and today I decided to catch up. Not going to happen! I had over 256 emails. Tomorrow is another day, another new beginning, another opportunity to learn and be a better me.