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Questioning myself

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

Do you ever have one of those days when your day starts off ok but then someone makes one comment which makes you feel like less than you are. You start analyzing what the person said and get to a point where you see what they see. The funny thing is they don't even realize how their comment affected you.

I had this happen today. Flat out- I don't feel attractive and this person's comments just made me confirm this is how everyone sees me too. I don't feel like a whale anymore and I can't do anything about how my face looks without the intervention of a plastic surgeon. All I can do is set goals for myself to get to a point where I am happier with my appearance.

I want to drop 15 more pounds. Feel more comfortable with my body. I want to get my hair hilighted. I need to spend a bit more time on my make up and dress more girly. Also get new clothes that fit after dropping 33lbs. I tend to put make up on in the mornings and let it wear off by 11am. I have never been a fashion plate for me comfort is key. Give me jeans and a t-shirt with a cute pair of flats and I am happy.

I want to change this. I want to feel attractive. I am tired of feeling schleppy. Can I just say how much I am looking forward to my kickboxing class tonight?
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    Sounds like you have some wonderful things to make yourself feel more attractive! I always want to be in sweat pants, but, putitng on a cute top and work pants pants definititley sets a different tone for the day! Have fun with exploring a new style for you!
    3657 days ago
  • KAT130
    Wow, we are in such a similar mood today! I could have written this post, because I feel the same way. It really helped me reading this, I guess we all feel like this from time to time. I know my feelings of self-disgust are because of how the date worked out this weekend. And the worst part is, he really cares about me and would be upset if he knew how I felt right now. And his reasons made sense - we have become best friends, and he is afraid to mess that up, because he wants me to be a part of his life. But a part of me can't help but think, "if you were thinner, smarter, prettier, etc...things would have been different." Uggh, the things we do to ourselves!
    3657 days ago
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