Sunday, July 03, 2011
On January 3, 2011, I put on a patch. Reflecting back over the last 6 months, I'm pretty convinced this time will be the time it sticks. I've quit smoking several times before, with varied success. Sometimes, as few as only a couple of weeks passed before I'd be back in the habit. Once, I went for 15 months. But I think on all of those times, and I can recall that I was probably not in the right head-space; that I certainly didn't have adequate coping tools for unexpected stresses; that I ultimately was quitting for the wrong reasons.
This time, I've got a whole bunch more self-knowledge. This time, I have different tools to use. This time, I'm avoiding the places and situations that kept me puffing away. This time, I can feel the freedom. This time, I quit because *I* _wanted_ to quit. I didn't like how I was feeling. I didn't like my lack of energy. I made the choice, and took the appropriate steps, and here I am.
I still have the occasional inkling of a craving. I still accept that that will always be part of me.
One thing that has me convinced that this time is IT - I haven't had a single dream in which I've smoked since I put that last one out.
In previous attempts, I would dream about it regularly. This time - the nasty cancer-sticks seem to have left my life for good.
Now I sleep better. I breathe better. I can exert myself longer. I can *JOG*! And, even with allergy season, I have not had a single asthma attack in the past 6 months...
Its all coming together. Can't wait till I get to post about a year of smoke-free living. Even more, I can't wait until I get to post about my husband's 1st day!