Focusing & Pushing Myself
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Just doing my best to continue pushing myself a little bit more each day. Wrangling everything in and mapping out a simple plan to start, catching my breath and along the way through each moment noticing hints of relief, inner strength all of course still coupled with me feeling pretty spent and emotional scattered.
My job today, after having to call the police again yesterday because she violated the restraining order is stay firm inside and out and when the feelings of guilt come to coach myself through them and continue telling myself that whatever she is going through, consequences etc....that's it's not my problem, it's no longer my responsibility. My job is to stasy strong and focus on what I need to do today to get stronger and healthier and give myself permission to start believing that that is ok.