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Focusing & Pushing Myself

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Just doing my best to continue pushing myself a little bit more each day. Wrangling everything in and mapping out a simple plan to start, catching my breath and along the way through each moment noticing hints of relief, inner strength all of course still coupled with me feeling pretty spent and emotional scattered.

My job today, after having to call the police again yesterday because she violated the restraining order is stay firm inside and out and when the feelings of guilt come to coach myself through them and continue telling myself that whatever she is going through, consequences etc....that's it's not my problem, it's no longer my responsibility. My job is to stasy strong and focus on what I need to do today to get stronger and healthier and give myself permission to start believing that that is ok.
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  • JSTCHLIN
    And we are here to help keep strong and stay focused. One foot in front of the other.
    3620 days ago
  • IMJUSTFLUFFY
    Blessings on you.

    Stay firm.
    Be kind.
    Face the future.

    Rhonda
    3620 days ago
  • SRHALLIN
    It is difficult to make the transition that you are working your way through. So, here are some important things to keep in mind:

    1) You've literally given everything you can to help her.
    2) It is not for us to fight another person's battles.
    3) You can help some one to want to be better, but, they still must do the work of becoming a better person.
    4) If you're ever going to succeed at your own objectives, you must remain focused on them.
    5) The best way to become a truly positive human being, you must distance yourself from negative influences in your life. Even if you love them.

    I wish you all of the best in your journey to good health and personal happiness. You deserve it.
    3621 days ago
  • CAROLANN27
    Hi Ryan,

    Putting one foot in front of the other, as you mentioned in your status, is a real accomplishment when things are hard. If you can do that now, you're succeeding!!

    Guilt is a very destructive. Stay true to yourself. She will have to take responsibility for her own life. Your enabling is over. The battle to get clean and sober is a battle only the person involved can fight. And I think you've learned that the hard way. If you could have done it for her, you would have.

    I'm glad you are feeling twinges of relief and inner strength. As time goes on, you will feel that way more and more of the time.

    There are a lot of us pulling for you. Remember how far you've come in your personal development and healthy lifestyle and try to build on that. You've just made a big positive step in taking responsibility for your own well-being. I support you 100%

    Carol



    3621 days ago
  • WESHAKAT
    Ryan,

    I can't imagine what you are having to go through. But you do have our love and support - you both do - as you find your separate paths. emoticon
    3621 days ago
  • JANEYINMADTOWN
    My heart goes out to you....stay strong Ryan.
    3621 days ago
  • MT-MOONCHASER
    Even under better circumstances, a breakup is hard to deal with. I hope you are able to put your coping mechanisms to work to keep making healthy choices when tempted by the not healthy ones.

    emoticon
    3621 days ago
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