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Saturday 7/30

Saturday, July 30, 2011

A quick check-in...

My glucose came in 157 this morning....hopefully it continues to drop.

I'm up taking my time around the house, ate my egg beaters and had coffee. I started first load of laundry in probably 5 years....seems like no big deal, but folding all of the domestic stuff back into my daily life felt really overwhelming a week ago....so one foot in front of the other.

I'm doing some work at my desk and then later this morning I have a friend coming by and then my younger sister is coming over around noon.

Yesterday was tougher than I would prefer....I just really kept feel the pain of my long time companions absence and the inner struggle of feeling torn. I know what's right and what I truly want, and probably what I miss is what I 'wanted' it to be versus what it really is.

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  • IMJUSTFLUFFY
    Keep talking truths in your head & your heart!
    You don't deserve less. You deserve happiness & peace.
    Rhonda emoticon emoticon
    3614 days ago
  • STEPHLOKI
    Hey Buddy,
    you are doing great! Its normal to feel the loss. I remember the first evening I lived alone when I was going through my divorce (I had staid with friend for more than 1 year) it hit me so bad that I was alone now I cried the whole night. Now 10 years later I still feel the loneliness, but I know it was the right step.

    Hugs
    Steph
    3614 days ago
  • MT-MOONCHASER
    Having been through a divorce, I sympathize with you. Even after many years, I still occasionally wonder "what if".

    However, I learned to function on my own as a whole person. It took time, but I did it. You can do it, too.


    3614 days ago
  • MASRITE
    Hope you have a restful weekend!
    3615 days ago
  • JSTCHLIN
    Well said. It takes looking in from outside the box to see what it truly is. Keep on keeping on.

    Take care and stay healthy

    3615 days ago
  • CAROLANN27
    I totally agree with WESHAKAT. I think, after making such a difficult decision, which one knows is right, we forget that there are reasons to grieve as well as reasons to feel good about making the right decision.

    The whole thing about missing something the way you wanted it to be versus what it really is/was strikes a chord with me. My daughter went through a divorce last year and still has trouble distinguishing between what reality was and what she wishes it had been.

    My heart goes out to you. But you will gain more confidence and peace as time goes on. Your ability to understand your own feelings sets you way ahead in that process.
    3615 days ago
  • WESHAKAT
    Give yourself space for grief. I know the healing process will take some time. But it will happen - for both of you. emoticon
    3615 days ago
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