Kick it into gear, SELF! & late night battles
Thursday, August 18, 2011
I woke up this morning, weighed myself and I was 243.3. NOT okay.
I was down to 238, thanking the Lord for putting me on such a smart path...how did I gain 5 lbs in less than 2 weeks?! It's not okay, and through this lesson, instead of beating myself up, I realized something very important - my weight loss depends 110% on ME. Not the weather, not when I feel like I have time or the oomf to do it. Everything I do - how I eat, or when I eat, or how often I work out is all on me. I control this 100%. I'm doing it to myself and I can undo it too. I know I can and I'm gonna stop all this BS where I get sad about my weight and then go to sleep, doing nothing about it.
Something I've found to be my downfall is eating late at night. Hunger strikes me HARD around 11-12ish. I know, go to bed earlier. Sometimes I can't, and I know going downstairs to eat is a conscious decision which is the worse part. I get up, walk down and do the whole thing with full will. I know I keep mentioning it, but I can't wait until I go to school...it's seriously going to be much better. Dinner ends at 9 and then "late nite" starts, but I can choose to 1) not go (which will usually be the case) or 2) get the fruit or veggie cups they have. It doesn't have to be all or nothing.
The least I could do at this point, two weeks before I leave for school, is stop eating late and if I feel nippish - have some fruit. I'm ALWAYS full after it. Here's to hoping I can at least get back to 240 before school - easy!