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My 4th Chemo treatment

Thursday, October 06, 2011

I had my 4th chemo treatment yesterday I saw my doctor and as we were talking she said to me Carol you are doing ABNORMALLY WELL during your chemo treatment and your blood counts have been FABULOUS not one time have your blood counts been low since you started your chemo..She even asked me are you getting chemo?? We both laughed and I said yes I watch them put it in my body every time Im here.

It all comes down to one person JESUS, he has healed my body, the fact that Im in my 4th treatment and have not had one side effect from the chemo can only tell you that Jesus has totally healed my body, the chemo doesnt even affect it actually I feel stronger after the treatment. The first thing they give you is Benadryl which makes me sleepy but it also triggers restless leg syndrome which I have. So Im sleepy but I cant sleep because my legs twitch and turn and the only relief I can get from that is to go for a walk..

As I had the IV in my arm I took my IV stand and went for a walk and as I was walking around the hospital floor I decided to do a little workout. I started doing lunges down the hall way and some high knees even a little jog with my IV stand by my side. Of course the nurses looked at me like I was crazy but I just felt that good and it was taking care of my restless legs.

The other patients that were there were giving me stange looks and I just laughed they all had the same question how can this be?? Im sick, throwing up and Im wiped out where are you getting all your energy from and why arent you sick? I simply say MY JESUS!! Know him, know his word and take him at his word and you will be blessed..

We listen to the word, we read the word but how many of us actually do his word, live his word. The Holy Spirit tugged at my heart on this when I first started my weight loss journey he said when are you going to take me at my word and trust me that I know exactly what Im doing with your life and I simply said Today Lord I start today and I have not looked back and he has kept his word..

How faithful is our Jesus it brings me to the scripture
John 21:15-17..This is after Peter denied Jesus.

15 So when they had eaten breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon, son of Jonah, do you love Me more than these?" He said to Him, "Yes, Lord; You know that I love You." He said to him, "Feed My lambs."

16 He said to him again a second time, "Simon, son of Jonah, do you love Me?" He said to Him, "Yes, Lord; You know that I love You." He said to him, "Tend My sheep."

17 He said to him the third time, "Simon, son of Jonah, do you love Me?" Peter was grieved because He said to him the third time, "Do you love Me?" And he said to Him, "Lord, You know all things; You know that I love You." Jesus said to him, "Feed My sheep.

How many times did Peter deny Jesus? 3 times and how many times did Jesus ask Peter how much he loved him? 3 times..They spent 3 yrs together and they are face to face looking at each other eye to eye these men are friends they ate meals together, life together and when Peter denied Jesus they were looking at each other right as he was denying him..I cant imagine how Peter felt the bible says he wept BITTERLY..I know I would have too and yet how many times do we deny him??? In 1st Corinthians 13 says one day we will rise from death and see him face to face.

The key to overcoming sin is to get face to face with Jesus. What I love is Jesus doesn’t look at Peter and call him a coward though it is accurate. He doesn’t look at Peter and say you have deep seated fears of man issues, though that’s true. He doesn’t say you are a liar and that’s true too. Instead Jesus gets to the root and he looks at Peter, and Peter can tell as he looks at Jesus, that Jesus loves him and so Jesus asks him 3 times do you love me??

Why does Jesus ask Peter this question?? Because sin is not just the breaking of Gods laws it’s the breaking of Jesus heart. When you and I sin we are sinning against our friend, we are sinning against a God who loves us, we are sinning against a God who wants to do life with us, we are sinning against a God who calls YOU BY NAME and treasures you as a friend. So when Jesus asks Peter do you love me he is in essence teaching Peter if you love me you are not going to lie, if you love me you are not going to deny me, if you love me you are not going to be a coward, if you love me you are going to live for the Glory of God, not for the approval of others.

All your problems and mine really come down to 2 things.
We don’t really believe that Jesus loves us
We don’t really love him

And even if we do sometimes in a moment we choose otherwise and that’s why we sin..So the key to overcoming sin is a friendship with Jesus. Hes not just an idea he is a person who loves you with all his heart.

Jesus is calling you as he did Peter to feed his lambs, tend his sheep, feed his sheep just as he told Peter tell your story so people will be strengthened he is telling you the same Jesus is asking you:: DO YOU LOVE ME??

Heavenly Father
I continually pray for my dear brothers and sisters here and Lord I thank you that you take a failure like Peter and a failure like me and you allow us to be used by a faithful God to shepherd a flock of sheep. Lord, I am Peter we are all like Peter, we are faithless and we are failures and Jesus you are faithful. And your faithfulness to us it not only forgives us, it changes us. Lord Jesus I thank you for the story the testimony of the life of Peter and I thank you that you are faithful help us to see your face as Peter did. We have sinned and then we have victory over sin and then we sin again. Lord Jesus help us to remember even when we are faithless you are faithful. Jesus thank you that you are the HERO of the life of Peter, thank you that you are the HERO of the story of my life. Thank you that Peter did change and did grow and in the end he loved you well as you loved him well and Holy Spirit we invite you to give us the grace to finish well in the love of Jesus, finishing well loving Jesus in Jesus name I pray Amen

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    PRAISE GOD! He is so awesome and so wonderful! My sweet girl, Carol - such an awesome testimony! Sweetheart I know you bring such joy and smiles to our Lord's heart and face. You are beautiful. You are an inspiration to everyone. I love you my sister - keep going with Jesus adn keep us posted! I can't even put into words everything I would like to say! Love you much, Karen
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    I love you so much! I can just see you dancing down that hall with the IV pole! I can just hear your belly laugh!
    You mean so much to me!

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    Zephaniah 3:17 The LORD your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing." Imagine it, Carol... God, on His throne, SINGING, and not only singing, but singing because His heart is so filled with rejoicing over YOU, my friend. It's just too much to contain!!
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  • GRIFF2734
    Thank you all for your replies support and prayers the Lord is so faithful he not only hears all your prayers he answers them..When I started here at sparkpeople the Lord gave me the banner Jesus First and its been since then that I have really dedicated my life to doing just that..Always putting Jesus first no matter what is going on in my life. He has taught me not to go by what I see but to stand on his word live his word and do his word. He has taught me that his word is truth it always does what it says it will do and how I rejoice in that.

    It is my honor to serve my Master Redeemer Jesus he has brought me such joy a joy I never thought I could ever have and didnt have when I was so obese but now even in this situation I have his JOY...Its unspeakable not for what he is doing but just for who my Jesus is. I love praying for you my family of God and my constant prayer for all of you is JESUS FIRST!!

    In all you do his way is the only true way of living this life he has given us..Embrace him, love him, start seeking him at ALL TIMES not just in the bad times and when you finally learn this lesson by going through difficulties or trials in your life you will find that you just grew a mile in your walk with the Lord and isnt that what we pray for???

    Love to all

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    3586 days ago
    My dear friend I have felt your healing in my spirit since we talked on the phone back when we first talked about your cancer. As I wrote out that post, and then sent it to all the people I knew on FB (and in your first blog about your cancer) everything I felt inside my spirit was confirmed as I typed it all out. I have been telling my family that you have been healed and now it has been manfeated through your body! God's gory is continuing to be glorified through you! It is almost hard to explain, but I say this being worked out through the Spirit- when we first talked a week or so after you found out you had cancer. I thank God for sharing this healing with me, and with you, as we talked back then you said you were already healed. Do you remember what I said to you, well, I guess I wrote more than what I said on the phone. I is thrilling seeing God's work being done. I praise God for what He shared with me, and I praise Him for His healing. I hope this has not come out the wrong way. It is not anything about ME, that I felt your healing, is I only GOD. IT IS ALL GOD. It is the only thing I want anyone to see. But Griff, what God has given me, if you remember my comment, and the things I wrote, I was celebrating this healing through my words back then, and I am just writing, and trying to explain how awesome it is, to see through your words how it was played out!!! Glory to God, GLORY, GLORY GLORY!
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    Praise God! Awesome Blog, my dear sister in Christ! God has been stressing this in my life for a while now. To only speak according to the Word of God and DO the Word of God. Our Pastor is teaching a series on how to be a true follower! He stressed a point...there seem to be a lot of "Fans" of Jesus and not as many "followers". Fans hear the Word and get excited and AMEN, etc...but that's it, where as a true follower will DO THE WORD and that's where we become close friends and lovers with Our Jesus! HALLELUJAH! Thanks for sharing God's Word! Love ya! emoticon
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  • KAYDE53
    You write the most beautiful blogs, really testimonies. Praise God for all that He is doing for you!!! I'm so very glad that you are doing so well, bless your dear heart. I come to offer a word of support & go away more blessed than anything I could offer!! emoticon emoticon
    3587 days ago
    Your blogs just keep blessing me over and over.....praying for your total healing of this cancer!
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    Praying for you!!!!

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    I'm glad it's going well so far!
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  • BIGDAD1211
    All I can say is, Jesus First!!!! God bless you sis and thank you for praying for a weakling like me, because I know I am strong in Jesus Christ!!
    In Jesus Name
    3587 days ago

    Beautiful testimony!! I believe that is exactly why some Christians go through such trials and tribulations....they can then show the world how much easier ALL adversities are when we walk hand in hand with our SAVIOR!!!

    You are an amazing WARRIOR in GODs kingdom! I pray.... if I were to ever face such an ordeal.... that I would be as strong as you are!! We never really know just how strong and brave we are, until we are tested!! You, my friend, are passing ALL the tests with flying colors!!

    FATHER, GOD, I come rejoicing, standing in AWE, at all YOU are doing in Carlos life! Our creator, who loves and delights in us, in all our imperfection...I love and worship at YOUR feet! I celebrate with my dear friend, as she discovers, more and more each day, just how powerful YOUR love for her truly is!! I thank YOU that YOU continue to shower her with all blessings, that she is able to shine forth YOUR love, a meaningful and dynamic witness to others!

    Please give her the words to tell of YOUR love, to be an avenue directly to YOU, through JESUS, that others may follow her lead, and find that PEACE, GRACE, & MERCY are available to ALL who will receive HIS love and return HIS love!! Thank YOU so very much for this courageous womens life, her stand & devotion to YOU, our HEAVELY FATHER!! To YOU goes all the PRAISE, HONOR, and GLORY...forever & ever!! AMEN & AMEN

    Love you Carol!!

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    3587 days ago
    Carol this is so beautiful ,thank you. So very glad that you are strong. Take care. emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    Oh, Carol, what a beautiful testimony to the love of Jesus. I always wondered why Jesus asked Peter 3 times also. He was digging to the root. I'm so glad He still digs through my heart and we search together for the truth.

    I'm so glad you are feeling strong. Love ya, sis! emoticon
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