And so I continue to struggle ..
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
I have a fantastic family but the support just isn't there. One tends to be too sensitive to my feeling and doesn't say a word and another constantly brings me things I should not have. Yet another brings home stuff for himself ... all things I would LOVE to have and eats them right in front of me. While I know the world isn't going to change just because I'm trying to lose weight and get fit and healthy ... I don't think it's too much to ask for the home I live in to change up ... not what they are doing ... but HOW they are doing it. I certainly do not want everyone else in the house to stop eating what they love just because I shouldn't have it at this point and time in my journey! It gets more and more difficult with the major sabateur (did I spell that right?? LOL). Depression doesn't help but it's not an excuse to be lazy or eat whatever I want. So does this mean I don't really want it? I think not ... maybe I obsess on it too much ... it's not their fault I trip and fall ... it's mine because I'm ultimately responsible for what I put in my mouth and how I move or don't move my body! I did pick up a copy of The Spark and will begin reading it tonight. I think maybe I should focus my attention on others in the same boat as I am rather then expect my family to understand where I'm coming from.