Well, it’s been a month since I last blogged and things have been a little up and down.
I’ve been on holiday to my Dad’s, which meant food hell for me... after no support to continue eating healthy food or being asked about my food preferences and then being told they were either ‘weird’ or ‘strange’, I gave up fighting and ate crappy food. I ended up putting on 7lbs in 11 days, feeling physically sluggish and angry at myself. I’m an emotional eater, it’s something I’m already aware of, but I just couldn’t stop myself with the constant questions and comments. So, the unhappier I felt, the worse I ate.
I did have one good thing though... I went on my first jog and tried to keep as active as I could. On my jog, I could only run so far and then walk for a few minutes, but when I finished, I felt absolutely AMAZING knowing that I had just, on my own and willingly, gone jogging.
The day I was to drive home I started feeling positive and happy, knowing that coming home meant I could refocus and heal from the emotional turmoil I’d been secretly putting myself through. And do you know what??? Since being home I have been so focused, energised and back on track, that I’m not hating myself for the last two weeks anymore. I’ve been tracking my food, and cooking everything from scratch. I’ve been back at the gym Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Wednesday and again today (Friday). I thought I’d really feel a strain on my body from not working out for so long, but I haven’t felt tired at all, and I’ve even worked myself harder and achieved ‘personal bests’ on the machines which I’d struggled to reach prior to going away. I’ve even jogged/walked home from the gym twice, which is a mile. I know it’s not far, but it’s a start!
And today I got weighed... and lost 6lbs! This proves that hard work does get you somewhere. I’m not expecting anything next week, because this is a big drop, but I am really happy!
Here’s to 6 weeks to Christmas!
Love and hugs
Weight last Week: 17st 5lbs / 243lbs
Weight this week: 16st 13 lbs / 237lbs
Here’s a picture from my first ever jog, and the beautiful view I had.