Sleep Disorder: Unknown
Sunday, December 04, 2011
I mentioned this in my previous blog, so I thought I'd go further into in hopes someone will have heard of this before. I've tried to research this before, but I can't find anything about it.
I have had sleeping problems for a long, long time now. It started as insomnia when I was a teen and in my early 20's. Over the last few years, its sort of become part of a cycle of sleep: normal sleep, insomnia for a few days at a time, and this awful dreaming sleep.
I'll sleep normal hours at night, between 7-9, and wake up feeling just as tired as though I never slept at all. All night I'll dream vivid, detailed dreams. Not realistic situations, like any dream, but so realistic in just how complex they are. It almost seems as though I don't completely cycle through the stages of sleep. It's like I get stuck on the one part of the cycle and stay there. Either all night, or something... I don't know if that's true or not, but that's what it feels like. I'm just musing.
My friend told me she used to have the same problem and she was the only other person I've known to have had the same issue. The only thing is, hers was due to an anti-anxiety or anti-depressant she was taking. She switched medications and the problem went away. I'm not taking any medications that alter my body's physiology too much, other than hormones, asthma meds, and allergy meds. But, I'm still taking these meds when I sleep normally, too.
My mom says she's sure its stress related, and I can see where that is so. I am stressed out. I'm going to be moving somewhere by the end of the month or beginning of next month. My lease at my current apartment ends on Dec. 31st. Moving is always stressful. I hate it (I don't know anyone who loves moving!) and moving during the holiday season is just that much more sucktastic. This latest bought of dream-sleep began in the few days before we were due to turn in our 30 day notice to leave here. And now that its "official" or "final" that we are moving, it hasn't gone away. I look around my apartment and the thought of having to pack it all up is overwhelming. Unfortunately, I'll be doing most of it myself, as my future roommate (which was my previous roommate, but not my current roommate) is not going to be back in California until Dec. 28th. So, the job will be left up to me. Also, I need to schedule my surgery, but I'm not sure when I should be doing that. Ideally, the beginning of January would great, but the next school semester starts January 23rd. That's not a lot of time to recover. Added stress. Then, of course, next week is my final for my nutrition class and this week my project is due. I'm waiting on my friend to get back to me with some info (I'm analyzing his diet for the project) before I can really begin.
I was exercising very regularly, which in and of itself should help with stress, but I guess the "mental" part is overriding the rest. I'm so tired these days, I can't even muster up the energy to go for a quick walk. I had a Christmas party here last night and I was struggling to stay awake during the White Elephant gift exchange. I went to the Farmer's Market with a friend, then to lunch, and by the time we got back (at about 2pm) I was napping on the couch. And I pretty much napped all afternoon. I got up from it and still feel like I could just go to bed altogether. What little I slept I dreamed... of course.
I'm sort of at my whit's end. I don't want to be this tired. 5 days is enough. 5 days is too long. Stress related, chemical imbalance? I just want to know what I can do to get a good night of quality sleep.