Here we go.. again it seems.
Tuesday, December 06, 2011
Well I started dieting.. life style change a week ago. But now I am going to try to write and record my journey as I go. Hopefully I can look back at where I was, when I need motivation to continue.
I am currently off of work due to an injury, which makes it difficult to exercise due to pain and restrictions from the doctor. I WOULD love to be able to go to the gym and feel myself sweat.. feels like I am doing something.
I have always been overweight for as long as I can remember. Growing up my dad had a really bad temper, and put my sisters and I down ALOT. so out of that I got a really bad self-esteem. Since I met my husband 3 years ago, it has gotten much better, but I still feel gross ALL the time, there isn't a time I look in the mirror and think man I LOOK GOOD!! I know I have to be able to make changes with myself, not just with my weight to change this. But I need to be able to do little things like run to a local store for cute in-style clothes, and not have to drive a half hour to a mall. I want to be able to run with my nieces and nephew, without getting winded 5 steps in. But most of all. The doctor tells I am too overweight in order to conceive a baby. WHICH BREAKS MY HEART!! I want to have a baby so bad it hurts to see other pregnant people, and think to myself, if only I could lose weight I might be able to be in that spot.
One of my huge stress-ers is my sister, which is virtually my best friend.. is deployed and in Kuwait right now. She was my go to person for everything. Without her tends to get quite lonely. I told her I would lose 60 lbs before she comes home in MAY. I would like to be able to prove to her I can do it!
Well enough blabbing.