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A&I BSG Poinsettia Week 2 Blog: Dear Santa

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

“DEAR SANTA” – Write a letter to Santa and include what would you like for Christmas. Not exclusive to just gifts; this can be anything you think Santa could help you with if he could.

Dear Santa-

I want happiness for Christmas this year. 2011 has not been the easiest for me. Actually, it sucked. I need that happiness in my life. I want to look at a baby and smile and not feel a hallow emptiness inside. I want to feel again, Santa. I want to know that I will be okay. That I can go on and have a happy, healthy life and family. Santa, I just want to okay. Please help me with that one wish this Christmas season. Let me know that everything will turn out for the best.

Love, Andrea

(For those of you who may not know, I experienced a miscarriage in November.)
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    Oh Andrea, I am so sorry. I have been there, and I know...
    Although it may not feel like it, have faith that the pain of this will pass. Sending prayers your way.

    ps. If you ever need an ear...I'm here.

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    I'm so sorry to hear about your loss! I can only imagine how you must feel. I know there is nothing anyone can say that can really comfort you. Just know that all of your Spark Friends are here for you if you need us! Have you thought about getting a little bit of counseling to help you get through this difficult time? There's no harm in asking for help if you need it. The feelings you have are normal and it's going to take time to work through your loss. We all work through grief at different rates and there is no telling how long it will take for you. Just take it one day and one moment at a time. I'm sure that 2012 will be better for you and I know you are on Santa's nice list. I hope Santa brings you everything on your wish list!

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    3438 days ago
    Dear Andrea - I have no words to make your sad loss less painful. I do want you to know that my heart is with you and I care. I'm trusting that your longing to bring new life into this world is heard and will be honored. May you be blessed with tender comfort and peace, my friend. Hugs, CJ
    3438 days ago
    Andrea, I had no idea of your loss, but that makes my sympathy no less real. I admire you for sharing this important and private, yet so public, event in your life. You are so brave -- and wise -- to remain committed to what you want. Thank you.
    3438 days ago
    Oh, I'm so sorry. My deepest sympathies to you!! My sister miscarried several times between her 1st and 2nd child (her 3rd was an oops).
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    Great blog Andrea. So sorry for your loss! Thanks for sharing and being a friend. I truly hope you get your Christmas wish. You deserve it. emoticon emoticon
    3439 days ago
    emoticon Here's to Santa fulfilling your wish. May you indeed find that joy and fullness of living.

    3439 days ago
    Andrea, it's good that you are able to express your pain here to your SparkFriends, who love and care about you! Losing a baby is such a devastating event! I never had a miscarriage, but my sister had a stillborn baby, and I know how life-altering that was for her and how much heartbreak she went through (as well as the whole family.) Be patient with yourself and take one day at a time...give yourself time to heal. I am here for you if you need to talk. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, and I hope Santa will make your wishes come true. I have faith that 2012 will bring happiness to you! emoticon
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    I can't imagine how you must feel right now. Grief takes time. I don't know if you have had counseling for this, but I think it is important that you know that it's normal to grieve for the unborn child you lost, and that everyone grieves differently. It will take some time, and I am sure that it must feel like it is taking forever, but it has only been a month. Allow yourself to feel what you need to feel - I've found that it's the only way I have ever been able to sort it out and get back to "real life."

    (Also, I am sure it doesn't feel like it right now, but one miscarriage does not mean no healthy pregnancies in the future. I have a friend who had a miscarriage after her first baby was born, and she had her second child earlier this year. My own mother was the last of five children and there was at least one miscarriage in amongst those five. If you really do have worries about that, make sure you talk to your doctor about it.)
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    Comment edited on: 12/13/2011 3:25:52 PM
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    I do hope that Santa fulfills your list. I've never had a miscarriage, but my supervisor did so I know how hard it is. I hope you can start planning for another one soon.
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    emoticon letter Andrea. I know how difficult this time must be for you, and I pray that your wish comes true. Time does heal although it doesn't erase the event. emoticon emoticon
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