Honesty of Christmas 2011 and hopes for 2012
Wednesday, January 04, 2012
Well, Christmas has come and gone, and yes... I ate everything I could get hold of.
When I started my journey, I always had 5 dates that I would be ‘off the path’ –
1 - For 2 weeks when my mum was in New Zealand
2 - My sisters birthday
3 - My Birthday
4 - When I was on holiday
5 – Christmas!
And I didn’t disappoint in that way, but it was disappointing because all I had stuck to and learnt over the year was chucked out the window. I can’t lie though, I enjoyed it, and in that respect I don’t regret it at all, as the idea of a ‘Christmas Break’ was my focus during the tough weeks. But, it now means I have to make up for it, because I did NO exercise for 3 weeks and I ate anything and everything I wanted, no matter how full I was, I kept going. This led to me putting on 12lbs! Yep, not lying, 12lbs, and at one point it was 15lbs, but I inwardly shook myself, told me to get a grip and I started to watch what I was eating. So this morning I weighed myself and the scales didn’t hold back 17st 8lbs – 246lbs. All that hard work since September (which is when I at the weight last) has in many respects been a waste of time.
The last 3 weeks, I’ve felt sluggish and tired with no will power or control. I’ve had painful shoulders, back and knees from the lack of exercise. I can actually see the 14lbs that’s gone on, because at 236 I FINALLY started to get some definition and shape in the middle of my body. This is now gone, and I hate my reflection, which only a month ago was giving me butterflies of excitement at the progression I was seeing. I was starting to actually like me body, for the first time in my life. All I can now say is crap. I can’t do anything about what I did then, but I can start doing something about it now, by holding on to the memory of those butterflies and chasing after them!
So, I’ve already talked to my mum about this and next year we won’t be going crazy with the food. Christmas 2011 was the last time I’ll lose complete control like that. Already I’ve done the shopping list for Christmas 2012 (with the memory of what I did/didn’t eat and how it’s made me feel), and we’re sticking to it. We’ve already chucked out food we haven’t touched, which is such a waste of food and money.
2012 – My aim for the year...
It’s January 4th 2012, this day last year exactly, I found Sparkpeople and I started this journey, and to celebrate the year... I went to the gym. Yep, no food, no alcohol just a workout and a good one to. It’s officially my first one of the year and I pushed myself, loving every minute of it. The next 2-3 weeks is gonna be hard from getting in the habit of eating crap and doing no exercise, but the last year has proved I can do it. So this is what I want to achieve this year;
1 – Keep going to the gym a minimum of 3 times a week and start swimming in July.
2 – Eat sensibly.
3 – Learn from my mistakes and if I go off the deep end for a bit, then to forgive myself.
4 – Reach below 13 stone or less than 182 lbs by December 31st.
5 – Be happy with my achievements and to remember how far I’ve come when I’m feeling like I’m getting nowhere.
On that note, I want to wish everyone a fantastic year ahead and remember we’re all here for each other.