That little voice in your head isn't always a bad guy
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Well, that is another week gone by. I’ve lost 2lbs this week and kept up with my 4 days at the gym. I’ve kept closely to my Calories, and even stopped myself from eating a bar of chocolate (I got so far as unwrapping it, and then stopped myself), because I had a little voice in my mind... and not the one I usually hear. It just said “What do you want more, this Galaxy Ripple, or to be stronger, faster, happier and at a healthy weight?”. It just kept running through my head, over and over. It took me a while to answer though, because I really wanted it, but I wanted my FUTURE more. So it went back in the fridge... I ate it the next day though!
Then yesterday (Saturday), the voice came back. I was at the gym, and I’d done my full workout: 30 mins on the bike, 10 mins on the treadmill (with the final min being a jog), 20 mins on the Crosstrainer and then my resistance weights. For a few months I have wanted to take up running, and when I did, I found it difficult and above all, demotivating. When I said this to my instructor, he told me its different running on the treadmill at the gym than tarmac, and since I was told that I’ve wanted to try it. So, I’d finished my workout, and as I was sitting there, looking longingly at one of the treadmill machines, I thought “I wonder how long I can run for?”. I knew I could run at 5.8mph for one minute, and it wasn’t too hard. I wanted to experience that ’zoning out’ feeling you get when you run and have nothing whirling through your mind, except the enjoyment and freedom of running. It was just me, my mum and another gym member there who I speak to when I’m there, so I wouldn’t feel too embarrassed about it.
I got on, and set it at 5.5mph on a flat gradient and thought, “lets see how far I can go”.
2mins – “Right, goodness, not so bad... still breathing”
3mins- “Ok, don’t panic, you’re still going”
4mins- “What the ****?!?!?!”
5mins- “OMG... Lets see if I can do 6mins”
6mins- “One more minute, breathing getting a little difficult”
7mins- “I’m done!”
7 minutes!!! I couldn’t believe it, 7 freakin’ minutes. I would NEVER have thought I could do that long so soon. All day I was on a high.
Then today came along, and I had to see if I could do it again, just in case it was a stroke of luck that I did it yesterday. This is what happened (thank god for my mp3 player):
2mins – “Right, legs hurt a little, listen to the song and focus on that”
3mins- “Keep going, take it easy, don’t go crazy”
4mins- “When does this song freakin end?!?!”
5mins- “Right, do the same as yesterday, aim for 6”
6mins- (I didn’t look at the clock at this moment, I just had to keep going.
7mins 44seconds- “I think I might make it...”
9mins- “Keep... going...”
30 seconds left- “I’M GOING TO MAKE IT!”
WOW, from nothing to 10 minutes. I can’t believe it. I will never forget how I felt when I finished it. Granted by the end I was running like a cow being tazered, and I had to sit down for 5mins to get over it. But I've done it (even with my legs aching). From now on though I’ll do 7 mins and work myself up to 10. Today was just a test to see how far I could go, as I knew yesterday I could have gone further. My legs are heavy as hell now, but I don’t want to miss a day of running and go backwards in my training.
One thing I have learnt and easily say, is thank heavens for that little voice in my head, because it’s not always a bad one!
Have a great week everybody!
Weight last blog: 17st 4lbs / 242lbs
Weight this blog: 17st 2lbs / 240lbs