Bad New and Communication Issues
Friday, January 27, 2012
Just got a message from my brother that his girlfriend died in a car accident today. Neither he or I is able to reach mom (we all live in different states). I have been trying every avenue I can think of to reach her to no avail. I feel so agitated and upset that I really want to go walking, but I am afraid to go out and miss a call or message. And it had been such a good day before I got home from work and got this message.
Finally got through to my mother. She is already planning her trip down to see my brother and be with him during this time of need. I wish I could do the same but both time and money issues make the impossible right now.
Once I talked with my mother and helped her find flights, I finally got out for the walk I wanted. I was actually surprised and pleased to find when I was upset that my first instinct was to go for a walk, something that would have been unheard of even two weeks ago. Mind you my second thought was Chocolate, but due to my allergy diet I can't have that so I managed to say no to that desire without too much difficulty.
I am still quite sad but I feel much more in control now (of myself anyway).