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Sunday, February 05, 2012

My mystery illness has been getting worse -- will be seeing the doctor this week for more testing. In the meantime, I'm supposed to avoid basically any real physical exhertion. Not really a problem, as I've lost feeling all over (tingling, like when your foot "falls asleep"), but in my arms and legs especially, and have a really serious pain at the base of my neck. I'm even having a little trouble breathing, but so far not enough to make me think I ought to go to the emergency room.

But still, I feel like a slug for not exercising. And of course, even though I probably have bigger things to worry about right now, I'm worried about gaining my weight back. Maybe I'm focusing on that to avoid worrying about what might be wrong with me? Eating has been mostly OK, but I have to watch it with the "treats." An occasional treat isn't bad in itself, but they were becoming more frequent. Since I can't exercise, I don't have a lot of room for extra calories, unfortunately.

Also concerned that my illness may force me to be out of work for an extended period. I took a lot of time off because of my Dad's illness last year -- but I was lucky to have worked an insane amount of surplus hours in the first half of the year, before he got sick. I only just made my billable target for last year, but I did make it. I won't have that cushion this year, so any extended illness would involve either a reduced schedule (and salary to match), or disability, also accompanied by a reduction in income. NOT something that we need to deal with right now.

But I suppose I should not borrow trouble, and focus on the things that I can do something about right now. I'm keeping close watch over my diet, and although I can't do real exercise, I try to make sure to get in light physical movement, and stretching to keep myself in shape. Also trying to keep my work in good order, so that I am not facing any more stress on that front than necessary -- although it has been difficult to force myself to keep working when I feel so physically awful. So far, I've been able to take things one day at a time. Here's hoping I can keep it up!
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    Always hard to get well when the symptoms can’t be diagnosed.
    383 days ago
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    2861 days ago
    Sorry to read about your mystery disease. I'm sending you a goodie to help you feel better and crossing my fingers that nothing serious is going on.

    3376 days ago
    Hope you can get back at it soon.
    3381 days ago
    Oh me too. How frustrating. I really hope they can give you some answers soon. It sounds very scary. Take care of yourself and just try to focus on your health right now. If you can't exercise or even just walk, just really try to stay in your calorie "maintanence" range so you just won't have to stress about weight right now. Have they done a Doppler for a blood clot? I'm sending tons of healing vibes your way as well!
    3381 days ago
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    I checked back to your previous blog post and noted more of your symptoms. While they're testing things, have them check you Vitamin B levels in your blood.

    Since I found your blog from the roster at Ancestral Health, I'm going to make the assumption that you're not a vegan or anything so you should be okay from a dietary perspective, but it's a simple test. Even better, there's a simple and inexpensive treatment.

    Here's a good list of symptoms:

    If you're not due for bloodwork, you could also just ask for a B vitamin injection. It won't hurt and will possibly make you feel better.

    I'm just suggesting it because it's a commonly overlooked diagnosis. Don't flounder around for a couple of years needlessly like I did. Good luck!
    3381 days ago
    Sorry to hear about your health problems, I hope you will be able to find out what is causing your symptoms soon. Exercise is a great stress reliever , it has go to be tough when you don't feel well enough to do it. Good for you that you have been "mostly good" about your food choices- I am out of control eating when I am stressed. I will send healing thoughts your way and keep you in my prayers. emoticon Peggy
    3381 days ago
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