LIMES Week 2 Challenge - Getting to Know Me, Part 2
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
The weight part....
I've always been on the heavier side. You know, the chunky girl, the last one picked for any sports team. yep, that was me. I can remember having to wear polyester pants even as a very young child. it was great when Sears came out with their Pretty Plus line. I was finally able to wear regular little girl clothes. My parents sent me to Weight Watchers when I was still in elementary school. I was soooo proud of myself when I got that first 10 pound pin that I took it for show and tell. It took me a really long time to get that pin because I was growing taller at the same time.
While in elementary school I found softball and played into my high school years. I shudder to think how big I would have gotten if not for the sport, it kept me active so the way that I ate did not affect my weight so much. I was still one of the bigger girls, wearing anywhere from size 11 to a size 15 throughout high school but I wasn't the last kid picked for sports team anymore.
I met my first husband when I was still in high school. He was a few years older than me and I thought I was hot stuff to have this older boyfriend. I guess I started to gain a little weight while we were together though I didn't see that at the time. We broke up at one pint before getting married and he must have said some things about my weight because I decided to do Nutri-System during that period. I did lose a bunch of weight, getting down into the 150's before we got back together. And then I got pregnant. I was still very young and obviously knew nothing about being pregnat or taking care of myself. I gained around 100 pounds and I just thought that was a normal pregnancy. I did have a condition called hydro something or another, I can never remember the exact name. Anyway, basically what it meant was that I had like double the amount of amniotic fluid. This also played into my thinking that I would just go back to my pre-pregnancy weight after giving birth. Boy, was I wrong!!! Our son was 2 weeks shy of his first birthday when his father walked out on us. Here I was, 21 years old, alone with a baby, and the heaviest I'd ever been.
I didn't consciously do anything about my weight, but it started coming off. I used to call it the depression diet, but I don't know that I was truly depressed. What I can tell you is that I had very little appetite, and that food did not appeal to me the way it had before. I was not doing any exercise but I lost a great deal of weight for the second time in my short life.
When I was 23 I got together with the love of my life. I'd know him for several years, having worked with his father and he chased me for a couple of them. I finally gave in and it is one of the best things I ever did. There were certainly times when I questioned that because our road has been quite rocky at times but we made it through and will be together for 21 years this week. Enough of that, this blog is supposed to be about the weight. I became pregnant with our twins very early on in the relationship but didn't gain an out of the ordinary amount of weight. As a matter of fact, I came out of the hospital after giving birth a couple of pounds lighter than I was when I got pregnant. The weight started piling on again in the years that followed. We had a 4 year old and 2 infants and money was tight. We relied on cheap convenience foods, pretty much anything you could find a coupon for and $1.00 whoppers from Burger King or $1.00 double stacks from Wendy's. We also ate at buffets because the kids were free.
I didn't get on a scale or see a doctor for many years. When I finally did go to the doctor for a routine physical I learned that I had allowed myself to grow to 274.5 pounds. I always knew I was heavy, but had no idea I was THAT heavy. I was seeing a new doctor for the first time and she really took an interest in me and pointed me in the right direction to get toi where I am today. That was about 8 or 9 years ago. Over these years I had a few false starts. You know how it goes....lose 40 gain 30, lose 20, gain 30 and on it goes. About 4 to 5 years ago it all clicked for some reason. I guess I just found the right time in my life to get it done. When I started tracking my weight loss using a website with nutrition and exercise trackers I weight 235.5 pounds. In that first year I lost about 65 pounds and then it slowed down to a snails pace. I managed to get down to about 153 and maintained there for about a year and a half, and then slowly started to gain. To date I've put on close to 20 pounds in the past year or 2. I seem to have lost my something, not sure what to call it, but I don't track my food as diligently or exercise as regularly as I had. I guess I just let life get in the way.
So that's my story. Now that it's out there for all to see maybe I can get myself back on the right track.