Sunday, March 25, 2007
things just don't seem to be going right for me & it's killing me. i'm so motivated to really change things & i can't.
maybe that's just an excuse though. I can do crunches & push ups in my room & take a run around the block, right?
for those of you that don't know, i was in a pretty crazy car accident on the 8th & totaled my car. i got hit by a jeep grand cherokee doing 60mph in my little ford escort.
so, that just makes things hard. i have no car & i'm saving every dime i have to get a new one. good news on that is that i am up $3000. Yay! i'll get my new car in about three weeks. at least that's something to look foreword to.
i've lost 20 pounds & i feel great, but sometimes, i just get so frustrated with myself for not eating as well as i know that i should. i don't over eat, & i never ever have. but, i went out to lunch with my boyfriend yesterday, & had a slice of pizza. my reason for that was because i'm REALLY picky about the kind of turkey i eat, so i'll just get that. i only had one small slice and a sprite, but i left feeling absolutely disgusting & really disappointed in myself for not being stronger.
i'll get there, i know i will. especially since i found this wonderful community of people & their endless support!
i know i'm only human, but it's been so long since i have actually let myself eat anything at all... and now that i am actually eating during the day again, i feel horrible anytime i eat something that isn't a salad or a yogurt or something.
oh yeah, & the scale? that was up a pound today. talk about kicking a girl when she's down!