Thursday, April 12, 2012
Recently, I attended two big family dinners and noticed a big change in my thinking. It used to be before I even got to the dinner I would stress about what they thought about my appearance weight-wise. That really isn't all that paranoid if you know my extended family they have scales for eyes! They either tell someone they are much too thin or.... There is no just right weight. Not that someone's weight is anyone else's business! Although I still have a way to go having lost 28 pounds, I found that I did not dwell on my appearance before going. This is a huge change for me. Also, I was no longer dreaming, scheming etc. about what would be there to eat. I was bringing chocolate amaretto cheesecake for dessert and it didn't even occur to me that I could take a break and eat a piece. I guess because I knew I could do that and not feel guilty anymore, it no longer drew me in to its chocalicious web! Another huge change. I also found because I was not that focused on the food, I really enjoyed the company of others in a much more profound way. Who knew? Overeating at family dinners takes the focus off of others, it becomes you and the plate or should I say plates of food. I feel like some shackles have been removed from my arms and it is so freeing.