A test of my Integrity
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Dear Spark Friends,
It's been awhile since I've been active on Spark and staying up to date with my blog but I need you right now. There's just this thing about the spark community that is impeccable. It has a ton of positive energy and inspiration but the thing that makes this community stand out is the compassion that the members have for eachother during the hard times as well. It's amazing how we feel for one another and reach out the hand of compassion and understanding. I don't want to always talk about the "bad stuff" because, my heart is fueled with passion and fire but sometimes the hard things are the most important to share with one another. Whether it be weight loss, tragedy, bullying, loss, you name the spark community can relate and will be there for you during your triumphs and rough patches!
As you may already know I was working for Sparkpeople. Fantastic job being able to help success stories get to share their story. Fantastic boss that always had time,patience, and understanding. But I knew in my heart that I was a people person and sitting behind the computer wasn't enough for me. I got to resign on good terms and I still get chances to represent and be apart of the community and projects and I'm so grateful.
I finally decided to start pursuing my passion. I was going to start with personal training. First went and got my cpr/aed certification. Then signed up for a workshop and studied extremely hard a month prior. I was absolutely terrified and doubted if I would pass my test or not. I had so much anxiety the 5 weeks I had to wait for the results. I thought what a miracle it'd be if I actually passed both written and practical exam. Everyone thought oh christina you got this no problem but I wasn't so confident. I said well studying for this test and my life experience are total separate cateogories. I had no clue or understanding for kinesiology and the study of movement.... I worried about the embarassment I would feel if I had to tell everyone I didn't pass. BUT I DID!!! I bursted into tears of joy when I held the certification in my hand Christina Cores certified personal trainer. The tears flooded because, every single thing I never thought I could do I have and now this piece of paper just proves it to me. I never thought a piece of paper could make me feel soooo much. Within 2 days of recieving my certification I went out applying. I decided I'd go on a few interviews before I decided where to work. After 3 I thought I found a great place.
While working with spark and after I continued working in the restaurant that I wrote a blog about awhile back. It wasn't going great but it was somewhat better. Long story short one of the people got fired for harassment and came back in after being fired twice to harass me some more. New management took over and things just became unbearable. Many other servers shared the same feeling the place we once loved working for is now a dreadful nightmare. This job gave me insurance and was paying the bills so I just took it one day at a time just waiting for the day I just say that's it I'm DONE. After a web cast meeting with the president of the company I took it upon myself to write him a letter. He is under the impression that we have the best restaurant job and we love it and its all "KUM BA AH" I said to myself I want him to be aware because, he deserves to know. To my suprise he called me and had a very candid touching conversation with me. Then when I went to work one of the higher up there regional people had a talk with me and just had a attitude and tone about the investigation that has to be done and the statements and just frustrated me that I was some big inconveience to her. At the end of my statement I just said simply "I guess I'm the only one that cares about respect around here, I'll have to find somewhere else to work."
Meanwhile, towards the last week of my restaurant job I had a new job I started. A new up and coming gym had just opened and was still being built. I was a new personal trainer and I was ready for a fresh start with a career I'm passionate about. Let me tell you the begining a personal training career is very hard in the beginning. It takes time to build up a client base and you work for free until you do. But I was ready for the challenge because, I felt I was bringing something different to the table and I could relate to people that want and need the guidance and tools to achieve their goals. It started out great for the first week. I had a few clients that were actually right around my age and it was really awesome! My boss was really nice to me and I felt like finally a good fit for me I'm in my element! The niceness quickly turned into creepiness. He was calling and texting me all the time. Drunk phone calls in the middle of the night. Telling me I was a beautiful, intelligent, lovely lady. It didn't feel right. What was I to do..... I hadn't even been there for two weeks and this is already happening. He wants to bring me to weddings wants to know my fav color, season, movie, if I had a bf. I knew this wasn't going to go anywhere good. It couldn't. I was going to have to turn him down and then have to deal with him punishing me for it. A part of me thought well I got this guy wrapped around my finger and I could use this in my advantage cuz I'll get whatever I want. But that's just NOT who I am. I take pride in being a hard worker and living with integrity. I want a boss to like me because, I'm a hard working good employee not because, he has the hotts for me. I came in to work left my shirt on his desk saying "I quit" here's the shirt. I told my bf a little bit about why I quit because, he knew I don't just leave for no reason and I LOVED my clients. He called their coporate head quarters and I suppose got the ball rolling for me. The general manager of the club was furious as well as her bosses and the situation is being handled and dealt with. He's going to lose his job. He even had the nerve to text me last night trying to rub it the money he made off my clients! He had no sense of professionalism and displayed too much inapropiate behavior for my comfort. The manager wants to know If I'll coming back after he's gone because they felt I was a great assesst. I said it depends who you hire in place of him and chuckled...
The good news I have an interview Thursday for something totally different! I may not have a job right now, I might not have money to pay my bills, I might max out my credit card, I might be stressed but I'm proud of myself. I'm proud that I have a good head on my shoulders and know right from wrong. I'm proud that I'm willing to struggle before willing to settle for less than I deserve! I know I will find my place in this world!