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May is here and so am I

Tuesday, May 01, 2012

I've been on a kind of hiatus from Spark for a month. Still keeping up with okay exercising. Probably not eating as fantastic as before, but still not terrible.


April is always the WORST month. I'm an environmental educator and it's Earth Month so I have a lot to do. Coupled that with a lot of home stress and it's a recipe for not having much time to spend on the computer. BUT I'm not gone. I'm back. Don't worry.

So what's happened to me in the month of April?

Well the best news is last week my husband GOT A JOB!!!! YAHOO! I literally feel like the whole weight of the world has been taken off my shoulders and that life can start again. Hopefully my anxiety attacks can calm down and disappear and we can just have fun and enjoy. It's such a great job too - a career really - and I am SO proud of him. I'm just beaming. Best thing is that he is working right across the street from me and we have similar work hours so we can go to work together and even have lunch together every so often.

Counting down to race day.

12 days to go.

I'm scared to death.

I've realized that running on a treadmill is WAY easier than running on the road. I've been taking the dog running, but she cam sometimes be a real pain to drag along and sometimes she trips me up, so today I decided to concentrate on running and didn't take her. Man I wish I had.

Have you ever had this urge to do something incredibly mean and devious and fantasize about it in your head, thinking about how awesome it would be to do something like that? I was actually made fun of today while running. By two little boys. I had this horrible urge to pick up a stick and shove it in their bicycle wheel. I haven't been made fun of like that for a very long time. Besides a horrible comment on a youtube video from work I produced after the earthquake a few years ago.

And all I wanted to do was hurt them back.

It's a strange moment when you realize that your gut human instinct says to do something back, but that you know better. I shed a couple of tears, sniffed my nose and continued home to my loving husband and puppy.
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    Good luck to you and your husband! Don't pay any attention to the kids. I wish people would still tell their children, "If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all." It is such a simple lesson too. This reminded me of when I was younger. I was out walking and I overheard some kids say, "Hey look at the blimp." I was so upset and feeling so sorry for myself. I thought they were talking about me. It was only when I heard the loud engine overhead that I saw the actual Goodyear Blimp over my head. I laughed all the way home. I know it's not the same thing here, but I thought it would make you laugh.
    3291 days ago
    I'm sooo happy for your hubby!! That has to be great for you and even better for him. :)

    Kids sure can be mean. Especially ones that are raised without any manners. And even though you don't know them, I know it hurt. I'm sorry you had to deal with that. It just plain sucks.

    You are going to ROCK your 5K. You know you can do it so don't let small things like this derail you or question your ability.

    3293 days ago
    Welcome back!

    Kids can be mean and that just shows that they are looking for attention themselves. So I would actually feel sorry for them.

    You are going to do great at your 5k. Just keep believing in yourself!

    3293 days ago
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    Oh Yeah! I know how you feel. I have had that same feeling many times. I think very mean things to do to people to get them back but like you I never do anything. It is for the best because God will take care of it for you. Kids are the worst I think.

    Keep up the good work!
    3293 days ago
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