Okay, so the One Day Challenge team challenged us to blog yesterday. I know I’m a day late, but I journal a lot and didn’t feel the need to blog. But a challenge is a challenge......
Where to begin? I’ve been down this weight loss road more times than I can count. In the past 30 years, my weight has yoyo-ed between 125 and 175. Somehow, I knew that if I went above 175, there’d be no going back. Anything over that number would personally seem too overwhelming to lose, and I knew I’d just give up and resign myself to being a fat person the rest of my life.
At least I showed restraint in one small area!
I’ve had varying rates of success over the years when losing weight. But, even during my most successful times, something has always happened to stop the process and derail my efforts. Nothing external, just something within me. And I don’t just fall off the wagon. I forcibly throw myself off.
But I want this time to be different. I could probably write my own book about what you should and shouldn’t do when trying to lose weight. It’s not lack of knowledge that keeps me at this weight. That’s why I’m doing the journaling, to figure out the ‘whys’ behind my behaviors. It’s helping, but it’s slow going: 5# down in 2 months. That’s okay. I could have easily put ON 5 pounds or more in that same period of time.
So I’m here and I’m trying. No, not trying. Doing. (with a nod to you ‘Star Wars’ fans)
It can be different this time. I can make lasting changes. The resources on this site are wonderful. The community support and my weight loss buddy (Hi, Gayle!) who emails me every day are a huge help. But, bottom line, I have to do the hard work. I have to get out of my comfort zone (literally and figuratively) and get myself moving in new and interesting ways. I have to figure out why I do what I do and establish new patterns of behavior. I have to eliminate all-or-nothing thinking and allow for mistakes and missteps along the way.
I alone determine how successful I will be.
Hmmm....turns out I had quite a bit to say in my first blog!