SP Premium
25,000-29,999 SparkPoints 27,035

My First Blog - Some Thoughts

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Okay, so the One Day Challenge team challenged us to blog yesterday. I know I’m a day late, but I journal a lot and didn’t feel the need to blog. But a challenge is a challenge......

Where to begin? I’ve been down this weight loss road more times than I can count. In the past 30 years, my weight has yoyo-ed between 125 and 175. Somehow, I knew that if I went above 175, there’d be no going back. Anything over that number would personally seem too overwhelming to lose, and I knew I’d just give up and resign myself to being a fat person the rest of my life.
At least I showed restraint in one small area!

I’ve had varying rates of success over the years when losing weight. But, even during my most successful times, something has always happened to stop the process and derail my efforts. Nothing external, just something within me. And I don’t just fall off the wagon. I forcibly throw myself off.

But I want this time to be different. I could probably write my own book about what you should and shouldn’t do when trying to lose weight. It’s not lack of knowledge that keeps me at this weight. That’s why I’m doing the journaling, to figure out the ‘whys’ behind my behaviors. It’s helping, but it’s slow going: 5# down in 2 months. That’s okay. I could have easily put ON 5 pounds or more in that same period of time.

So I’m here and I’m trying. No, not trying. Doing. (with a nod to you ‘Star Wars’ fans)
It can be different this time. I can make lasting changes. The resources on this site are wonderful. The community support and my weight loss buddy (Hi, Gayle!) who emails me every day are a huge help. But, bottom line, I have to do the hard work. I have to get out of my comfort zone (literally and figuratively) and get myself moving in new and interesting ways. I have to figure out why I do what I do and establish new patterns of behavior. I have to eliminate all-or-nothing thinking and allow for mistakes and missteps along the way.
I alone determine how successful I will be.

Hmmm....turns out I had quite a bit to say in my first blog! emoticon

Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • no profile photo CD12531885
    Awesome!!! Keep it up!!
    3330 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12422498
    Great Blog! I knew you could do it! I love to blog! It's kind of like writing in a diary or journal, only you get great feedback from people on this site! :)
    3330 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12229405
    Great blog! Thanks for the mention! I think we are both getting out of our comfort zones and trying new things and new ways of doing the things we have been doing without success. I know that you can do anything you set you mind to.
    3331 days ago
    You have a great attitude and you are doing the internal analysis work to help you succeed!
    3332 days ago
    You did great on your first blog....

    What a motivation: " I have to eliminate all-or-nothing thinking and allow for mistakes and missteps along the way. I alone determine how successful I will be. " SO TRUE!!!

    Thank you for sharing your story, this site is awesome for support, I do agree!!

    Good luck to you, one step at a time! emoticon
    3332 days ago
  • no profile photo CD11622661
    emoticon job! I know how you feel about going down the weight loss journey as I have been down that road several times too. But life always got in the way and I always had excuses that kept me from continuing the journey. But not this time. I am DETERMINED, and it sounds like you are too. Stay emoticon
    3332 days ago
  • AHAVAH123
    Excellent blog!! Precisely the same issues I've
    been dealing with. I think they call it self sabotaging.
    Don't like it and am trying to get myself off of those cycles.
    Thanks for voicing my feelings. It really helps to see
    your successes in dealing with this issue.
    If you can do it, I can too!! Congrats on your very fist blog!!
    emoticon emoticon
    3332 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.