So I said earlier that I would do a blog telling more about me. Here it is.
My name is Susan Rodriguez. I am 45 years old, married, with 2 grown children and an 18 month old granddaughter. We all live together in Washington State. I have been married for 25 years. Yep more than half my life!
I am originally from Ohio but my family moved west my Sophomore year of high school. I am the oldest of 3 children. I am biracial (black and white). I know I know, everyone thinks that I am Mexican. I think the last name fools them. I just tell people that I used to be Johnson and I married Rodriguez! Lol
Now on to the snowball. The last 5 years have been difficult. In 2007, my husband and I split up and he moved out. We were trying to work through things but not getting anywhere. December 21st. I had the right side of my thyroid removed. I had a goiter that was getting in the way and my doctor suggested that I have it removed. On December 31st. I was notified that they found cancer in the part of the thyroid that was removed. Since they were not sure that there wasn't cancer on the other side, on January 10th 2008, I had the other side of my thyroid removed.
In May of 2008, I had radioactive iodine treatment. In June I walked in the survivor lap of the Relay for Life. In July 2008, I left a 15 year job in a local bank to the unknown of Oregon to be closer to family. I got a job in a bank and worked for them for 2 years. I worked in 3 branches, had 6 different managers, and at one of the branches that was in a Safeway store, the store closed and we thought we were going to be out of jobs.
During those 2 years, I was diagnosed with Diabetes, Sleep Apnea, High Blood Pressure, & High Cholesterol. I also ended up in the hospital 3 times in a 6 month period in 2010 thinking that I was having heart attacks. It was in those hospital stays that I was diagnosed with anxiety/panic attacks. They also found that I have a slight blockage in an artery in the front of my heart. Needless to say, that all came with LOTS of medicine.
Also during that time, my husband came back and we got back together. Then in May of 2010, he moved back to Washington to get a job as he had trouble finding work in Salem. In September, I followed him. Then all hell broke loose and I went into a deep depression. I couldn't leave my house, couldn't talk on the phone (even to family), didn't want to see anyone or take care of myself. If I even thought about leaving the house or talking on the phone, I would go into a huge panic attack that would send me to bed. This went on for over a year. I am still dealing with this now but no where near what I was going through before.
As you can see, things just came rolling down on me like a snowball and then I crashed and had a meltdown. Today, thanks to prayer and SparkPeople, I am getting out of the house, I call family more, I even called a Spark friend the other day!
I said all this to say that YOU can do it. I know that so many have things in their lives that are difficult to handle and may even be worse than what I went through. I am not looking for pity. I just want to show you that you can get to the light at the end of the tunnel! I had to turn things over to God. He had helped me so much.
Don't ever give up just because things in life get hard! Lift your head and look to God. Ask for His help to get through. Do what you can do and He will do what you can't do!