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Sunday, July 01, 2012

I really hate to say this out loud, or blog it, for all to see, or even just for me to have to look at, but I always, without fail, sabotage myself. I am a binge eater. I do good, and do good, and do good, and then I binge eat and undo all the benefit that I had gained. Every time. Then I try to make up for it by skipping meals, or going too low on my calories. And of course, that backfires as well. emoticon I just cannot seem to stay on a balanced level of caloric intake.
This has been my struggle my whole life. As a young person, I used to drink like that. Very dangerous. Then I'd swear the next day "ohhh, I am never drinking again" only to do it again, and again and again. (so thankful that God helped me pull out of that lifestyle) but here I am doing it with food now.
I really don't understand.
This morning I had a healthy b-fast before church, a bagel and 2 T of light cream cheese, and a greek yogurt. But when we got home from church, I had 3 leftover b-fast sausages as I made the kids lunch, then 2 bagels with cream cheese and a banana, so now I am down to 10-350 calories for the day.
My challenge team is staying on track for our food and calorie intake, so the only thing I can do is try to stay in my range.

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  • no profile photo CD1315172
    Cheering for you. I couldn't't do yesterday but trying today.
    3241 days ago
    I sure don't have any answers, but I can relate. We seem to go into auto-pilot sometimes... a stuff our mouths full of whatever comes to hand machine.

    I think what's helped me is to give myself the leeway to eat pretty much what I want on weekends as longs as I'm good all week. I still can't sit there on Satruday and Sunday and eat myself into oblivion, but if I want a sweet or handful of potato chips, well, then that's okay.

    I think we have to train ourselves to be mindful of everything we put into our mouths. Give it a few seconds thought before it passes the lips, and maybe rethink the direction...

    Good luck, hun!
    3241 days ago
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