Not gonna make it...
Monday, April 02, 2007
...To my goal of 200 by my birthday, that is. Less than three weeks to go, and still about 10 pounds to lose. But that's okay. I've reached some other important milestones that make up for it:
1. My husband now knows what I weigh. Don't laugh, I know it's silly. But I've never told him before, though he claims he "had an idea". I'm comfortable enough with this journey, and pleased enough with my progress to share this number with him.
2. I'm being honest with myself. Previously, when I'd tried to lose weight, I would tell myself "oh, that doesn't count" or "just one more time, and then I'm staring FOR REAL". Uh-uh. No way. Not anymore. If I want fries, I'll eat them. But I'm not going to lie to myself and pretend it didn't happen, I count every bite.
3. I can feel my stomach shrinking. And my thighs. I tried on size 14 and 16 bathing suits this weekend, and while I'm not exactly svelte, they didn't look awful. Last summer it was more like a 22. And my thighs look way better too, for that matter. Every time I look in the mirror, I'm a little bit amazed with myself and what I've accomplished so far.
On that note, I better get my butt to the gym tonight. No excuses. Go me.